Journal March 2, 2010
Tuesday, March 02, 2010
I talked to the bank today, no way I can keep the house. It sucks! I wish I had a fairy godmother somewhere who could grant wishes. I don't need it all paid, just enough that I can afford to stay. But alas, I guess it just isn't meant to be. I talked to a realtor after I got off the phone with the bank and he is coming tomorrow about listing.
I emailed him and let him know what was going on he replied to me are you sure about our decision? I emailed him back and said if you are asking have I changed my mind the answer is no. He then replied he just wanted to make sure before we start making all these plans that don't include each other. This may not be what you wanted but honestly you really didn't give me any choice it the matter. It came down to me having to make a decision. YOu are the one who will one day end up all alone because of the issues you have. I am moving on.
He is coming Friday night to get some more of his things. I am hoping he is not here to long. he doesn't know it yet, but this weekend, I am packing things up that are his and making piles of boxes!
On another note, I have started my low iodine diet for my scan in two weeks. I usually do it in May however on the routine ultra sound in January they "saw" something. They cannot tell me if it was there the last time or not. Ultrasound is not very good for diagnosis. So the Dr. wanted to move the scan up to make sure it was nothing. He seems confident it isn't anything so I am not getting to worked up about it. I hate this diet. So restrictive. Plus I have been sick and not up to cooking and I don't even have my breakfast muffins made yet or anything prepared. All I got done was my bread baked. Yet i have no homemade Peanut butter to put on the darn bread! I make my own tomato sauce so at least I can eat that! Pasta is OK too, but after two weeks I will be tired of it. I have to be in the mood for salad but sometimes the only thing that makes that good it the meat, cheese and ranch dressing and I cannot have any of it but the salad part, blah!
Ok enough whining. I feel good about weigh in tomorrow. We will see.