Well. . . .
Monday, October 23, 2006
Well I thought i was doing really well. Today I had a high calorie day (but i didn't go over the recommended). I haven't done any exercises yet. And I decided to cut my goals into intervals. Most of my life i weighed 170. I was unhappy then. I was actually more "okay" with myself at 190. I'd rather just not be okay with myself at all when i am over weight.The more okay I was with myself .. the more i gained. I guess that was how i sustained weighing 170 in highschool. I was so unhappy then. Well right now i wouldn't mind being 170 again. (I would have much less to go). I am glad that i am currently doing this for myself. I not doing this for anyone else. I want to feel good and look fit. If that means i have to work my butt off now..... well, i think i will be all the more satisfied with myself in the end. I want to see how far i have come and where i have gotten. I am sure this is going to be a long process... but i can do this! (My ultimate goal is still most likely going to be 140)