March 8, 2010

Monday, March 08, 2010

Pretty pissed today. I don't want to move and now I have to because of him. My children are worried they won't have a home with Mommy or that all of our "Stuff" will be taken from us. They don't understand that it is just stuff. To them it is so much more than that. I wish I had a check that I could pay off the house and say see yah sign off and get the hel* out of my life. He is back in his hometown and in the family fold and happy because he cannot live far from the apron strings. Ex wife or Mom or Dad. It is sad and it makes me angry. They didn't bother with us when we lived 20 minutes away, now that it is two minutes he is on everyone' social calendar. And I sit at home and clean and count my pennies. He tells me he doesn't know how he is going to pay his bills, yet he can go out. It is amazing how much of "MY" money was helping to pay his stuff! If it wouldn't have been for me he wouldn't have done so much yet he forgets that and I and my kids are the bad ones. I am not liking him to much right now. I have the entire house packed of his things, sitting in boxes just waiting for him to come and get it. I want it out so I don't have to see him anymore except to sign papers.

I did something last night I haven't done in ages, played a game with my kids. My youngest wants to play sorry tonight. We are going to do that while watching Dr. Quinn. I am looking forward to it. At least I have them and will always have them. I love my boys.
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  • HIMI16
    I know it seems like time flies when you want to cherish the moment and drags when you want things over and done with. Hang in there. Focus on you and the boys and moving forward.
    3607 days ago
  • DEE797
    emoticon emoticon You are at peace with your decision and that is the most important thing so you and your boys will be able to move forward. Thoughts and prayers coming your way to help you through this.
    3607 days ago

    Comment edited on: 3/8/2010 6:49:20 PM
  • JEM0622
    TOY Gail. Keep the kids things as best you can. Check with Social Services to see if they can do anything to help with housing. ~julie
    3607 days ago
  • KELLY3305
    Stay Strong. I'm sorry that you and your boys have to go through this. Keep your chin up and have fun playing those games. I love playing games with my kids even if I don't think I have time to or don't feel like it. House chores can always wait and they will still be there later to do.
    3607 days ago
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