Thursday, October 26, 2006
Last night I had a revelation of sorts.
It was time to STOP and say wow. I was at the oulet mall, shopping for an outfit and was checking myself out in a very nice looking outfit that happened to be a size 0 pants ans an XS top.
Well it fit great and I bought it and came on home. Here I am at home, cleaning out my lunchbox and and getting it re-packed for the next day. I am planning and measuring and everything...all the time I am beating myself up mentally for not getting to the gym as much as I would have liked or for eating that bananna this evening as a snack (a bananna for goodness sake).
Well it all of a sudden hit me like a ton of bricks. I AM IN A SIZE 0 AND XS!!! I WEIGH 117 POUNDS. I HAVE NOT WEIGHED 117 POUNDS SINCE MY EARLY 20'S.
I have been so busy looking at the forward goal of competing and seeing every single imperfection on my body that I did not apreciate any of the accomplishments to date.
I think we can get so caught up in the challenge of perfection that we fail to see the beauty of where we are right now.
I think I am going to take a few weeks away from obsessing over this contest and REVEL in where I am right now!
I will start right after I weigh myself and measure my body fat this morning (just kidding)