Frightened but OKAY
Wednesday, March 10, 2010
Last night was one of the worst nights I 've had since being a child. I hate being scarred and boy was I. All the dogs and I were taken by surprise. I was in my bedroom watching t.v. and out of the blew I had frozen meat being thrown at me. I had asked my husband in an early e mail around 10 a.m. if I could get something to eat. The freezer is in his area. No response hence no decent food. I had some snack stuff left from the seven years old but nothing diet smart to eat all day. It was seven o'clock and he went in to a rage. Still don't know what triggered him. He threw 12 packs of frozen meat ,some were roasts at me. Then the yelling began. I got the dogs and myself in my room and locked the doors. I don't scare easily but I was shaking like a leaf .I called my friend who started to blow me off and told him to call me in the morning to make sure I was alive. That got his attention and I got a chance to talk and calm down. He did call at 7 this morning. Even locked in my room with four large dogs I was afraid to really sleep.
I am still making calls. I didn't give up . I have a plan. He has finally agreed to get advice about a bankruptcy.
As of April 1st I will be changing medical coverage and he will no longer have to pay a penny and can no longer hold the cost over my head.
He knows about this site so I have to be careful of being monitored and can't give my whole plan away. He blames sparks for giving me the friends, support and advice to help me with my weight and get out. I can not express how much you all mean to me. I am stronger because of your help and caring. Stay with me it will be a long bumpy road but with you I know I can make my weight and get some place safe and be happy.