HAPPY ST PADDY'S DAY
Wednesday, March 17, 2010
I celebrated early on Monday night when my friend came up to stay. I drove six hours, three hours each way for him to visit his son. Long day and the visit was longer then anyone could have planned. I am exhausted but feel a sense of satisfaction and pride being able to help my friend out when he needs me. I walked a lot while he talked with his son. I walked slow as usual but I covered a lot of new area. I am paying for it today and was unable to get much rest last night. Tye my problem child missed me so much he ended up having seizures all night long. He stresses, so did all my animals. Know for certain that when I go for knee replacement I have to find someone to come to the house. My dogs won't survive without it. My spouse is trying his hardest to prevent the surgery and my getting more mobility and health. This is another fight I have to succeed at. I need this surgery and without it I will end up right back where he'd like in the power chair with no independence or life of my own. His desire to control and abuse me knows no boundaries. I am going to see my neurologist this Friday and talk with her after the nerve test and if surgery is still viable ask for her advice and help dealing with him.
Feeling lonely after my friend left. Waiting for the chaos to start up. Had a break where with my friend here I felt safe and was able to relax and not be on constant alert for problems or violent out bursts. My friend calls every day when he drives the grandsons to school to make sure that I am okay.
First official grandson was due on Sunday and is over due. My daughter in law is in great health and in great physical shape. She is already 3 cm . Her HMO has scheduled an induction for the 23rd. I hope she has it on her own. An induction can be rough , especially for a first child. Told her not to over due but to continue with her walks and before she knows it she'll be at a full 10cm. I am planning trip over there to see her and Anthony this Sunday.With all that is going on his hugs work miracles.
for all the care and support