What my avoidance costs me

I’ve read many blogs lately regarding the choices we make in life. Some of those choice cause us to “fall of the wagon” or fail. Some of those choices lead to success. Either way, those choices set the scene for the events that follow.

It’s all a matter of how you choose to handle situations in life. As I read in another blog this week. Which path do you choose? I tend to choose the path of least resistance, the one that is comfortable, secure and calm. But what does that do for me? It keeps me exactly where I am. Is that what I want out of life? Absolutely not! I know I’m capable of so much more!

I’m one to bury myself into other things in order to avoid the negative feelings associated with events in life. I know myself well. What has this cost me? Too much! Not to mention those negative feelings still come and go. Chalk it up to stress, worry or just plain FEAR. Running from something never solves anything. I lived numb to the fact that my mother had stage 4 breast cancer and would never be cured. Then when she passed, it made it that much harder because I avoided reality.

I run a small successful accounting and tax business on the side. I’ve had it for about 15 years now and it has grown by referrals only with no effort on my part. My dream would be to go full time with it one day and work for myself. Don’t get me wrong, I love my full time job and the owner is great. But there’s nothing like being your own boss. (Or so I’m told) But what stops me? Fear – I love the security my full time job gives and the benefits. I won’t have that at first when I branch out, nor will I have the income I’m used to. So I think about it, get scared and crawl back into my security blanket. My avoidance or fear has cost me from branching out on my own. I’ve given it too much control in my life. Sometimes I wonder if I would have taken the step years ago, I imagine what it would be like now. I admire those who have the courage to face their fears and really look at the negatives, determine what the underlying currents are and deal with them.

As Katmomma3 has told me “What you avoid is what you need to face!”

Time to face the music and change the tune. I’m not sure how yet but where there is a will there’s a way!




Jenn