Breaking Old Habits
Tuesday, March 30, 2010
Today I walked into Fred Meyers stressed out because my husband had spent too much money playing online games that I didn't know about and I had to hurry up and put in all the cash I had in my purse, bottle returns, and spare change scrounged from the car and couch to even bring my account up to a positive balance before three pending charges came through. I now have $.07 in my account, but it was enough! After all that emotional trauma of panicking and thinking I didn't have enough, I started to head over to the bakery where I get my usual stressed out high carb high sugar treats (thanks to food stamps). I stopped in the fruit section, with the bakery in view, and realized that 1. I didn't feel hungry, and 2. I didn't feel like eating any sweets thanks to giving up all refined sugar a couple of weeks ago. My body was so trained by habit to run over to that bakery and look at the pastries that my mind had to stop it and realize that would only make me feel worse in the long run and that I didn't even WANT it!