Day... Much Later
Monday, April 05, 2010
Easter. I had a Peanutbutter Chocolate Egg, 2 robin's eggs, and 5 jellybeans. Then I asked my husband to hide the rest because it was obvious I wasn't going to stop.
My self-control is still the pits. I haven't really made any progress in the past 15 months. Well, to clarify that, I would make progress and then lose it. I can't seem to keep consistent.
On the plus side, my exercise conditioning is overall okay, which is an improvement. I was able to do a 20 mile bike ride x 4 this past week, and the limiting factors were weather, motivation, and boredom. I have my friend Gary to thank for the conditioning. Hopefully I'll be able to get back with him this week.
As always, my main issue is nutrition, making poor choices, and overeating. I see patients of mine who are doing so well with gastric bypass surgery, and I get so jealous. I know that it is a rough, rough road, but it's also been a long rough road behind me. I feel caught between what I think is the right thing to do - work on the diet and exercise even more - and what I want to do - have the surgery and hit the reset button on my gastrin levels.