One Step Closer
Wednesday, April 07, 2010
Met with paralegal last week and this week has been crazy trying to get all the information together and deal with the abusive screamer. We see the attorney to file bankruptcy this Saturday. Need to survive a few more days. Am stressed out and a nervous wreak. Not sleeping and fibro is bad. I am shaking like a leaf in a hurricane. He just wont let up and if I fight back he'll back out. He knows that after I get the bankruptcy over with that I'll be one step closer to leaving him. I talked with the paralegal and he'll later help me with a separation and take a look at spouse retirement to see how best to protect me and get me some money to live on. One baby step forward towards freedom. This Saturday see attorney and get paperwork filed.
Doctors machine is now deemed not fixable. She is bring her old unit out of storage to try and get the nerve test I desperately need done. I am behind my schedule for knee surgery and my weight goal is not where I'd like either. Even watching what I eat with the stress I am not loosing. I have been able to do more upright exercise and I think some of it is I am rebuilding muscles that were very weak from being in the power chair for ten years. I use braces and crutches as much as possible. I have been pushing myself to exhaustion trying to rebuild my body so the knee replacement will be a success. My training with the new rott Mara is going great. She has done everything I have asked of her and gone every where I've needed her to go... church, bank, doctors even a garage sale. Got some new tops for .50 cents. My first garage sale. I never had the confidence to ever stop before. Mara has given me great strength and confidence is her love and willingness t
for all the support and advise.