One Step Closer

Wednesday, April 07, 2010

Met with paralegal last week and this week has been crazy trying to get all the information together and deal with the abusive screamer. We see the attorney to file bankruptcy this Saturday. Need to survive a few more days. Am stressed out and a nervous wreak. Not sleeping and fibro is bad. I am shaking like a leaf in a hurricane. He just wont let up and if I fight back he'll back out. He knows that after I get the bankruptcy over with that I'll be one step closer to leaving him. I talked with the paralegal and he'll later help me with a separation and take a look at spouse retirement to see how best to protect me and get me some money to live on. One baby step forward towards freedom. This Saturday see attorney and get paperwork filed.
Doctors machine is now deemed not fixable. She is bring her old unit out of storage to try and get the nerve test I desperately need done. I am behind my schedule for knee surgery and my weight goal is not where I'd like either. Even watching what I eat with the stress I am not loosing. I have been able to do more upright exercise and I think some of it is I am rebuilding muscles that were very weak from being in the power chair for ten years. I use braces and crutches as much as possible. I have been pushing myself to exhaustion trying to rebuild my body so the knee replacement will be a success. My training with the new rott Mara is going great. She has done everything I have asked of her and gone every where I've needed her to go... church, bank, doctors even a garage sale. Got some new tops for .50 cents. My first garage sale. I never had the confidence to ever stop before. Mara has given me great strength and confidence is her love and willingness t emoticon emoticon for all the support and advise.
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  • JWENZEL723
    our bodies tend to hold onto everything when we're stressed. give yourself some more time to reach those weight loss and fitness goals. you're doing great!
    3819 days ago
    It looks like there is some light and the end of your tunnel. I'm wishing you luck, and strength to get through the bad parts.
    3820 days ago
    When I went through my divorce and other difficult times, I would always tell myself that in a year from now it would all be over, or it wouldn't be as painful, or it would be a distant memory, or I'd be able to smile again.

    I hope you find some peace! emoticon
    3820 days ago
    Baby steps, as with all things, will get you to the place that you will eventually feel safe and secure. Things work in Gods order and timing..seems like He's working for you. Mara is your lifeline and you've trained her well. What a priceless gift she is to you.
    Our prayers for you are being answered one day at a time. Keep on moving ahead, but be careful and stay safe.

    3820 days ago
  • ENUFF81020
    Hi there,
    I think you posted this as I was posting on your previous blog. Things sound a bit tenuous, but like they are moving in the right direction. When does the screamer sleep? Maybe that could be the times when you are awake and active, even if you might have to turn things around a bit for a while longer. If your Fibro and Oa is like mine, I am not a regular sleeper with connected hours anyway.
    Mara sounds like a real gem, such a helper and companion. I'm glad she is working out so well for you. Good luck with everything and I hope that things keep moving in a positive direction! emoticon emoticon
    3820 days ago
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