Is it worth it?
Tuesday, April 13, 2010
A while ago, I was listening to a Hungry Girl Audiobook. She asked us if we thought it felt better to be thin and give up some stuff or be overweight and eat whatever. Well, I've been both (and recently too) and I can tell you it is better to be thin.
Last year at this time I was 20 pounds lighter, then my dad died suddenly and I ate. Then I had a breast cancer scare and I ate some more and drank some more also. Now, I ask myself, "What was I thinking?" You can't forget your troubles in booze and food. You know, I didn't really enjoy any of that either. It totally did not help me feel better.
I liked wearing stylish clothes, getting comments from friends like "Wow, how do you stay so skinny?" THAT made me feel good! I want it back!
Now, I hear my dear mother in law may have lung cancer. I love this woman so much. I never knew my own mom. She passed when I was a child. So Marcella is very dear to me.
I have learned, however, that what will make me feel better is a chat with her and a long walk. I KNOW she doesn't want me gaining weight because of her. And I won't.