My current struggle...

Sunday, May 02, 2010

I think people really develop patterns in life. Patterns of behavior and habits. I have a "diet" pattern. I change my lifestyle, add exercise, start eating healthier, etc. I typically last about 3-4 months. Sometimes a little more sometimes a little less…

Well, this time, I have not stopped. It is the beginning of Month 5. I am definitely facing that point in the pattern where I typically stop. This time is different. I still login daily, I still drink my water, I still plan my food for the day, I still check in to the message boards to keep up with everyone. I truly think of this as a permanent lifestyle.

But my exercise has slowed to a crawl. Strangely, I love exercise. I love my morning walk. I love the gym I go to. I love how I feel when I have worked out hard. I love how my body feels when I strength train. But, I have almost stopped completely. 2 weeks in April I did no exercise. The other 2 weeks I did minimal.

I feel like I need to know why. I plan it. I intend to go. Then when it is time, critical part here..... I tell myself I can do it later. Later sometimes happens, but rarely. I know with the gym and strength training, as much as I love it, I did go too fast. I hired a personal trainer and I was making progress so fast, we changed up to work on my "endurance". I was wasted when I was done. The weights were higher and I could barely do the 6-8 he asked for. That is when I started telling myself I needed a break.

Then the walks started to become optional. Oh, I will do it later in the morning between meetings. Oh, well, I can walk after work. Then 4 or 5 or 6 days go by and no walk. I love to walk. I love the cool air in the morning. At this time of year, I love listening to the the birds while I walk.

So why am I letting this happen? I feel like I should know why this is my pattern. But does it really matter? Do I just attack this like any other problem in my life and look for tasks, small steps to get over this? I did go to the gym this week. I told myself no pressure. Just go and do the fun stuff. Leave when you want. A little is better than none. I was there an hour. Maybe that is the answer. No pressure, just do something. I can work on continuous improvement later. Right now I just need to get moving.
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    I do the same thing over and over. But now I tell myself that my walks will get harder if I wait too long. Hang in there, you will find the solution!
    3988 days ago
    Thank you for posting this blog. It has rang true in my life a numerous amount of times. I have started again to start putting off. This is not a good thing and I believe that you bringing this to the forefront we can both kick it and say I am not falling into the same trap! emoticon emoticon emoticon
    3995 days ago
  • CKAYT56
    In thinking through this in your blog, you have figured it out. Maybe joining a class, or setting up a time to walk with someone would help to get you there to do it. In the past that has worked for me, as I don't want to let the others down. And maybe you are right that it was too much too fast and you need to back down and start over at a slower pace. I absolutely agree with you that a little is better than none. You can do this, I know you can. You are going to break all of your old diet records and this will become a new lifestyle for you.

    3996 days ago
    I think we all can relate to the struggles of this journey. Get back to walking, since you love it, and then get back to the gym and strength training on starting out more slowly and working back up. Good Luck.
    3996 days ago
    Sounds like your exercising moved too fast, like you said in your blog. You have the right idea though about doing a little and take it from there - no pressure. Start with your morning walks again, get up and walk for enjoyment first and then add to it when you are ready! Like you said any movement is better than none!! You can do it!!
    3996 days ago
    I think you answered your own question. A little is better then none. No pressure- As for the food area- get rid of the word DIET- that is a no no- We are on a journey to be healthier and fit. It is a lifestyle change- Sure you can slip up here and there but basically stay focused.You are learning to eat better and that will be core of your life- you will embrace it when feeling so good. emoticon
    3996 days ago
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