But for the grace of GOD
Wednesday, May 05, 2010
Today while I was running errands like banking and going to Walmart I was rushing and on the freeway leaving town I passed a older man and his dog sitting along side the road trying to get a ride. I know it is stupid but I turned around a few miles later and went back for him. I told him I was only going another twenty miles but could get him where two freeways intersect and he might be able to get a ride from one on the big rigs that pass through, I gave him food and water for his dog. I gave him my bag of beef jerky I'd just bought and twenty dollars all the cash I had. I felt good about helping someone in need and was worried about whether he had been picked up. While I was getting ready to go check before it gets dark my husband found out my intentions and you'd think I had committed murder. I was reamed and lectured. I had my rott with me and even though I knew you aren't suppose to stop I felt like I was suppose to, almost compelled. I help people as often as I can but seldom let anyone close like in my car or home. He was polite and gracious and grateful without being insincere felt that maybe I had done something good and felt good about myself until his abuse and put downs started. Was I wrong to help. I don't have an abundance but what I gave I gave willingly and from the heart. We are now fighting to where I will have to lock myself in my room and he is punishing me by not making dinner. I am not a child that should be punished and sent to my room without food for being nice to someone with less then I have. I try so hard to teach others as you would want to be treated. For all I know he is an angel stranded on earth and needed my help. But for the grace of god I am one step away from being that man with his dog on the side of the road and I would like someone to do all that they could for me too.
Tomorrow I go up to Merced and I am going back to where I left him tomorrow morning and if he is still there will offer him a ride further up the road to where he might get a truck ride easier.
We need to be careful, especially women alone. I know this being an ex police officer but I swear doing the right thing felt good and I was compelled to turn around and help this man. Contrary to what he says I am a good person who cares ,just not about him!
Get my nerve test tomorrow so keep your fingers crossed and say a little prayer for me tonight.