Week Two - GAINED! - Motivation, where are you?
Monday, May 17, 2010
OK - Before I even start, this is going to be a self depreciating kinda blog. Last week was Team Building in my department. You see, we underwent an "Organizational Evolution" - translate to mean that everyone will be doing something different than they are doing right now. Last week, we spent Teambuilding to learn our new team mates, and just bond together. The company provided the majority of the meals, and I felt that I did not overeat - even if they weren't always what I would have chosen otherwise. I was twice as active as a typical week just "pod dwelling" (read - sitting in my cube, doing computer work) and I GAINED! I think I don't have the right mindset to lose. So today I ate my typical PB and toast breakfast - but transitioned to Slim Fast for lunch and afternoon snack. Just looking at my remaining calories - I think I might be over based on my planned dinner. I am starting to feel frustrated and have begun to ask myself - at age 46 - am I just destined to be always be fat? Because face it - regardless of what I call it - I am fat. I look fat, I feel fat, I am fat. I get so frustrated with it all - I just want a glimmer of success.
Really need to wrap my head around a new mindset . . . .