Protecting What's Essential
Tuesday, May 18, 2010
I started writing this blog an hour ago, but it keeps getting jumbled up.
The bottom line is that I hate being noticed at the gym. I hate it when I see people looking at me, and I hate it when they talk to me. Usually whatever they are saying is very nice and/or trying to be helpful. But my insecure mind turns everything into messages of embarrassment or exposure.
I know I'll get over this as I take one baby step at a time and keep showing up. I only go to the gym 3 times a week, but these three gym sessions are my favorite workouts. It's my strength training on machines workouts.
What I learned tonight is not to procrastinate and put off going to the gym in the daytime when I'm comfortable and have a good routine going at that time.
I discovered tonight that doing my ST workouts with few people around is important in order for me to enjoy them.
Ok. I know I can do the workouts when I'm not enjoying them. I did tonight. But why set myself up for disappointment when I can easily set myself up for success?
I learned tonight to protect what is essential.
Maybe it's essential to work a little on self-acceptance, too.