Reality Check - do I or don't I?

Tuesday, June 01, 2010

Today - the scale, again, was not my friend. She seems to be mocking me despite my best efforts. But wait . . ."best efforts"? Let's take a look at best efforts for last week:

a.) I did NOT track my daily food intake each and every day, and on some days did not fully track it.
b.) I did NOT eat Wedding Cake at my friend's wedding - BUT - I went to the store and BOUGHT half a cake and ICE CREAM (fat free, though) and proceeded to EAT IT (shared it - I didn't eat it all, but I DID eat half of a half in two days!)
c.) I did not exercise at all - I have chronic knee pain exacerbated by my ever increasing weight and use it as an excuse. I love weight lifting, but have an injured shoulder that I have not sought medical attention for.
d.) I eat healthy one day, only to sabotage myself the next - and don't log it because I KNOW it will not be within my calorie range!

I need to drop this weight for a healthy me, I need to establish a healthy relationship with food. I need to feel the effects of what achieving these successes will do to my body. I DO want to succeed, but this is truly an addiction that I must overcome and to do so - I need to reset my mind on what is most important - health or that piece of cake with ice cream.
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    I agree with Emma refocus, and review...your winning the battle, sometimes we have to eat the cake...and don't get down on yourself for doing it...tomorrow is a new day...your doing great...keep it up....your on the winning team of losing...woohoo...go team... emoticon
    3835 days ago
    Have you tried water aerobics? They were great for my leg and burn a bunch of calories.

    Just start fresh, track everything this week no matter how "bad" you think it is and workout in some way 10 minutes each day, once you get that down up it.
    3836 days ago
  • EMMA579
    It's rough having the ups and downs. More so than readjusting your thinking -- personally, I think cake and ice cream are much better than health when I'm standing in front of it -- you have to figure out what is holding you back. Why did you turn down cake at the wedding (a legitimate excuse to eat cake) and instead get your own? Maybe that will help, if you can substitute an alternate action instead. For example, if you eat something because you are disappointed, change the behavior to do something relaxing or something you enjoy instead (and not 'go for a walk' because let me tell you that doesn't seem to work :) ). In therapy I learned to identify the behavior, work backwards to identify the cause, and then work to change the cause to be a different outcome.

    You may also need specific goals. "Healthy" is not something I can relate to -- I don't remember being a healthy weight and it's kind of vague for me -- when would I think of myself as healthy? I need something concrete -- I got to do a craft class when I reached 50 lbs weight lost and I get a new tattoo if I stay on my plan until October. I don't set a specific "lose pounds by" deadline, but do use pounds as a marker to work for.

    Refocus and review. Don't be too hard on yourself, because we all make mistakes. It's part of the whole journey.

    Let me know if I can help...

    3836 days ago
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