Reality Check - do I or don't I?
Tuesday, June 01, 2010
Today - the scale, again, was not my friend. She seems to be mocking me despite my best efforts. But wait . . ."best efforts"? Let's take a look at best efforts for last week:
a.) I did NOT track my daily food intake each and every day, and on some days did not fully track it.
b.) I did NOT eat Wedding Cake at my friend's wedding - BUT - I went to the store and BOUGHT half a cake and ICE CREAM (fat free, though) and proceeded to EAT IT (shared it - I didn't eat it all, but I DID eat half of a half in two days!)
c.) I did not exercise at all - I have chronic knee pain exacerbated by my ever increasing weight and use it as an excuse. I love weight lifting, but have an injured shoulder that I have not sought medical attention for.
d.) I eat healthy one day, only to sabotage myself the next - and don't log it because I KNOW it will not be within my calorie range!
I need to drop this weight for a healthy me, I need to establish a healthy relationship with food. I need to feel the effects of what achieving these successes will do to my body. I DO want to succeed, but this is truly an addiction that I must overcome and to do so - I need to reset my mind on what is most important - health or that piece of cake with ice cream.