Oh my goodness, I'd forgotten!
Tuesday, June 08, 2010
I have to start this entry off by saying, this is not the first "return" I've tried to make to SP. There have been several but I've allowed some thing or another to sideswipe my focus and determination. It's amazing really, how we do that to ourselves but it certainly goes to show that I was not in the place I needed to be or my true focus was needed elsewhere.
I started Spark back in February of 2008, lost just over 30lbs, maintained that loss for 1.5 years, quit smoking and gained back 20lbs. I am, as it turns out, quite good at maintaining my weight for the most part.
November 23, 2009 was my first day of not smoking and I was and am fiercely determined to NOT smoke anymore. My senior mother, a smoker of 55+ years lives with my son & I. She is very, VERY slim and has been all of her life. She also has an overractive thyroid, chronic bronchitis and chronic obstructive pulmonary disease. Let's just say that the mornings around my home are riddled with a cacophony of coughs. So, I made the decision to quit. I knew that there was a very real possibility I'd gain weight but I figured for sure if I continued on with what I'd been doing I wouldn't gain much more than 5 or 6 pounds. RIGHT! As time went on and I congratulated myself for not smoking, I also had to start putting my new clothes from the last couple of years up on a top closet shelf and try to grease myself up to fit into some of my "roomier" clothes in my wardrobe. I was having a bit of a dilemna!! See, when I lost the weight before I was determined not to gain it back again so as I went down in sizes I gave away the clothes that were too big! Awesome! Let me tell you, it didn't feel all that wonderful to have to go BACK and buy more of the sizes I'd just congratulated myself for shrinking out of. On the positive side...the 23rd of this month will be 7 full months since I touched a cigarette after 23 years of being a human chimney!! WOO HOO!!!! Worth the 20lbs you may ask? It is a temporary inconvenience for a permanent improvement!!
Yesterday I weighed myself and recorded it, I also updated my SparkPage, reacquainted myself with my tracker and have adjusted my focus to include the rest of my healthy lifestyle changes. It is quite difficult, I found, to focus on several lifestyle changes (one being an addiction) and be successful at any of them within myself. This is a new week and one I am very excited about!
Already with just increasing water intake and cutting back on carbs I feel an incredible power within me! I've also read some stellar blog entries by my fellow Spark Members and am very happy to be home! I look very forward to making some new friends and re-establishing friendships with previous ones on Spark. Such a great place to be for virtually ANY interest or challenge!
Woo hoo...let's do this!