this "thing" of ours...
Tuesday, June 15, 2010
did anyone of you ever watch the sopranos?? one of my all time favorite shows.
did you ever see the gang refer to their careers in the, uh, organization, as "this thing of ours"???
i am pretty sure that is the term.
i was just thinking how it is, that most of us here feel more comfortable opening ourselves up on sparkpeople, to total strangers, than we would to our moms or sisters or spouses.
i guess, this is just my thoughts, that we can do this partially because most of the people you talk to on here, you arent ever going to meet.
but, in this case, i feel its because we have a kinship.
if i say to someone, i feel gross and fat and hate that i feel like a total failure because i had an extra piece of chicken at dinner, or i just didnt feel like working out today, so now i hate myself.
chances are, many many ppl will read it and go "ahhhh yea, i get it" have been there...
its our "thing".
i have a doctors appt on thursday, the doc i always dread going to.
i dont know why i get so freaked out by going there.
he is pretty laid back, but, he gave me a goal and i havent met it no where even close.
but, i am going to appeal to his understanding of the fact that i have lost 2 relatives and a very dear old friend since i last saw him, funerals and depression and traveling and stress.
also, the knee injury that has kept me off the walking track, the treadmill and the exercise bike for nearly 2 weeks....
i am hoping he will be understanding of the fact that i have barely been able to hobble from one room to the next.
so much has been going on, and i guess i could have tried harder, but i am just dreading it all the way around.