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Vanity Sanity

Tuesday, June 15, 2010

Everyone has reasons for wanting to lose weight and be healthy, blah blah blah. And I think most are generic, like “I want to live longer, I don’t want to huff and puff up a flight of stairs” etc. I also think everyone has very specific reasons also and in my case, I always think more about those reasons than the “good” reasons to get healthy. That is, my very specific reasons for losing weight are mostly very vain and selfish, with a few healthy normal reasons scattered about. Overall though, I think I have mostly good reasons to lose weight….I’m not trying to do it for one big event, I’m not doing to please one particular person, I am doing it for a multitude of reasons, and if some are egotistical, I’m okay with that.

So I’ve broken up the main reasons into two groups – my “good” healthy sane reasons, and my vain selfish egotistical reasons.

Sanity:
1. My back – I would like my back to not ache so much, and not to spasms after standing for too long.


2. Disease – I don’t want to end up getting diabetes, heart disease, breast cancer, or another disease that can otherwise be avoided or can possibly be caused by obesity. I was so scared at my last dr’s appt that he would tell me I was pre-diabetic, I was so relieved to find out it wasn’t true. And if it’s something I can avoid, then why wouldn’t I? I also have mild sleep apnea, and that most likely will get worse if I don’t drop some poundage.


3. Food – I would like to have a healthy relationship with food. I don’t want to be an emotional eater. Also, I need to lower my cholesterol. I don’t want to have to take medication for it eventually, when again it’s something that can be avoided and helped if I just am smart about it.


4. My knees – my poor knees support all this weight and I think they are starting to protest. I get a few aches and twinges occasionally. I don’t want to have to get shots or get surgery in my knees in the future. Again, it’s avoidable!


5. Seating – this may seem more vain than healthy, but really, it’s not. Flying on a plane, sitting on the bus, in a movie theater – all can be quite uncomfortable not just for me but for the people next to me. Besides that, it is also embarrassing at times.

Vanity:
1. My ankles – I have the dreaded “cankles” where the ankle and calf meet, there is no distinction. And my ankles are usually swollen, which is very unattractive. I hate how my legs look so much, I am embarrassed by them and they make me feel ugly. And I hate feeling that way. I don’t dress the way I would like to, since I usually avoid dresses and skirts unless I can wear boots with them, because I can’t wear cute shoes. And with summer coming up, I am dreading it a little bit also.


2. Boots – it’s near impossible for me to find boots that actually fit my calves, so again, there are a multitude of outfits I can’t wear. And I like boots….it makes me sad and angry.


3. A bikini – I think I would absolutely love to feel comfortable in a bikini eventually. Will I have a perfect body? Most likely no, but I can certainly have a hot body that I might like to show off eventually.


4. Photo shoot – this might be the vainest of all…I’ve always wanted to do a sexy photo shoot, maybe that whole boudoir thing. I know I could do it now, but as much as I preach body acceptance and self esteem, I don’t know if I could actually enjoy it or appreciate the results.


5. Costumes – Superheroes, Star Wars characters, steampunk – all so cute and sexy, and I’d love to get myself into some hot little costume. And if happened to be for Halloween, even better!


6. Follow-thru – yes, I’d love to get healthy and lose weight just to prove to everyone (including myself) that I could do it.


7. Acrobatic – so many physical things I’d love to try, but don’t feel safe or comfortable trying it right now, including horseback riding and trapeze classes. Yes, that’s correct, I said trapeze!


8. Clothes – I love clothes, and it’s hard to find stuff sometimes. And I hate crying in the dressing rooms, it’s awkward. And it’s more expensive at times to buy “plus-size” clothes. Ridiculous!


9. Me– I deserve to be hot…or hotter, I will say. I’m not too shabby right now, there is only room for improvement.

So, although it looks like I have more vain reasons, I think the actual sane reasons outweigh the vain ones. They are more important. The vain ones are motivators too, and that’s okay. I am a sane healthy person who is vain at certain times, so my desires reflect that, and I’m okay with that.


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  • PRINCESSAHEART
    LOL, cute! We all have our vanity reasons for sure! But, whatever is good to inspire someone to take the steps of trying to lose is good!
    Have a great day!
    3710 days ago
  • ENTROPICPARADOX
    I think it's great that you can enumerate so many reasons you want to lose weight! Those reasons turn into motivation so that when you need to make the healthy choice, one of those reasons is bound to work. I have all the "healthy" reasons, but frequently it's the "vain" reason that actually works when I need to pass up the fudge someone brought in to the office.
    3710 days ago
  • RAINLOVER
    ha ha, thanks!

    I haven't talked to you for so long, how are you?
    3710 days ago
  • DTBTSSANDFLUFFY
    helloooooo i like your blog.. were you talking about me too?? It sure sounded like it. you will win your journey.. i know you will and you will be sizzling hot in that bikini...
    3710 days ago
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