The Yonder Mountains.

Wednesday, June 16, 2010

I need to start blogging again. It used to come so naturally but I have definitely had writer's block lately. The idea that writing accesses a different part of the brain used to happen to me because I was surprised when I used to write - I would think - oh where did that come from? Now that part of my brain that writes must be on summer vacation - zoned out on boardwalk fries and cotton candy (Deb - Grotto and Fisher's). I have been putting it off and it has become a task looming over me.

Am I right in thinking that anytime you put something off until conditions are right - ends up being put off forever? Or it becomes a sort of molehill that grows into a mountain. I know that I joined spark a couple of years ago but never jumped in - I was waiting for optimal timing when I could devote my full attention to it. Well each time that I got a spark email that I had signed up for - the more distant I felt from the possibility of jumping in. Finally this past year - while stuck at home with 40 inches of snow outside - I said to myself - Mary just try 30 minutes a day and break it into pieces. Well I was addicted in 30 minutes and still am. All I needed to do was trust in that first step.

What does that say about everything on this journey. Sometimes you have to talk yourself into just sticking that toe in and making that first small scary jump. That mountain in your mind may end up being a little speed bump that you can laugh about. Or so what if it is a mountain - you can only climb a mountain one step at a time too. And when at the summit you can look back at how far you have come and exult in your accomplishment.

Dianepbh had me thinking this week. She is training for a triathlon but she was hesitant to go into the weight room. I love the sweaty weight room but fear the timing of dance classes. We are each facing different mountains that we put off tackling. When we start out on this journey just figuring out what to eat, why we eat and how to move can be a big enough challenge. But beyond that are vistas that are left to be explored. We need to constantly be looking to move a little beyond our comfort zone, we need to be ready to stick that toe in and test the waters.

So right now I am writing a blog - and doing this was a little bigger than a speed bump but not nearly as big a hurdle that my mind had made of it. And as I climb this little hill my eyes are on yonder mountains.
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    It's true - sometimes you have yourself convinced you cannot do something (you don't have the time, or the talent, or the determination) but once you take that first step, you learn what you can accomplish, not what is holding you back!

    I am so glad you stuck your toe in to sparking!
    3575 days ago
    Amazing blog, gorgeous.

    " Sometimes you have to talk yourself into just sticking that toe in and making that first small scary jump. "

    I agree and I think the first step is the hardest, but you can do it. I am definitely challenging myself in that way right now - I go from excited to petrified and back again. I find myself combating the voices in my head that bring up old insecurities. But we are warriors in the end, we keep coming back because that is what we do.

    I am sure you will dance and write with abandon and it will be grand.

    Much love to you. XO
    3576 days ago
  • LLTS01
    I am so with you on the dance class. Shall we dance? emoticon

    I agree with you wholeheartedly. We each have different hurdles to overcome. For me it is yoga- now that I have overcome the fear of running in public. emoticon
    3576 days ago
    I enjoyed this! What you said is so true! I started SP a few years ago just using the food tracker. I never dreamed I would have my own page and blog a little every now and then myself! emoticon I never even dreamed I would ever use the fitness tracker and get to the point that I truly do enjoy exercising! You are right though we do need to stick our toe out in that undiscovered area of our lives. We never know what we can do until we do this!

    You do a great job writing and are quite a perfectionist at it! I believe this is the reason you dread it so badly! I know it is the reason I hate it so bad! I want it to say what I want, and I hate even starting it, because I have a tendency to get long winded!

    This blog got me thinking and I love ones like this!
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    3577 days ago
    :) I liked this. So when is your next dance class?
    3577 days ago
    GREAT blog and worth the wait! You have such great thoughts and writing style. So much of it spoke to me but I loved the we "are each facing different mountains that we put off tackling". So true. It shows that we are not alone but we are all unique.
    3577 days ago
    LOVED reading this! I am thrilled that you are going to do some more blogging. I connected on several ideas here. I noticed the same thing about how I live my life sometimes. I take my time .. something is mulling in my brain and then suddenly I am all over it.

    BTW... Your comment on my blog about the weights really helped me this week. I think I will end up enjoying it much more once I know what the heck I am doing. You woudl have laughed out loud when I sat on one the benches BACKWARDS ... My neighbor corrected me when I had that puzzled look on my face. LOL!
    3577 days ago
    "Am I right in thinking that anytime you put something off until conditions are right - ends up being put off forever? Or it becomes a sort of molehill that grows into a mountain."

    This is so true! I find that I allow this to happen in my own life SO OFTEN. I am a natural procrastinator, and sometimes I will allow something to loom over me and stress me out in a major way that would not have been a big deal if I had just gotten it over with. I am trying to teach myself that when it comes to things that are hard for me, it will always be easier to do them right away so that it doesn't have the time to grow enormous in my mind. Kind of like jumping into the cold swimming pool all at once instead of dipping that toe in and then chickening out.
    3578 days ago
    Mary, you hit the nail on the head with this blog. Procrastination and excuses -- not good. I don't know what you were worried about, but this blog is a good one. One step at a time, right? I like your thoughts about pushing beyond our comfort zones. Something I need to improve upon.
    3578 days ago
    I enjoy reading whatever you write!

    Your words are so inspirational and helpful. Your blogs are insightful and your comments on others' blogs are thoughtful.

    Judging from the final products, nobody would ever guess that you have trouble writing anything!

    The more you write, the easier it gets.

    (Maybe you should write TWO blogs each week. LOL)

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    3578 days ago
    Yes, you need to start blogging more frequently. Truly..

    I should too. I have tried to make it into a weekly spark habit, but I am not quite there yet. And everytime I blog I sink into thinking about something that teaches me about this journey. But I don't need to write ponderous blogs every time. Maybe little wonders come from smaller blogs. I don't know. And I won't know until I try.

    Last night's blog was written in a blaze of post-wine happiness. I should write when I have other moods, too. And so should you. I really apreciate your comments, too. So while you haven't been blogging, you have been reflecting on life and this journey. It is much appreciated.

    Time to celebrate small steps. And now, I am going to celebrate breakfast by walking down those 4 flights of stairs to the restaurant. Have a good day, Mary.
    3578 days ago
    I'm so glad you are blogging again. I always find myself nodding in agreement with your comments...!
    3578 days ago
  • REJ7777
    It's great to see that you're blogging again! I'm glad you were able to break through the writer's block. Your blog was very insightful, as usual! We really do all have our own challenges. I put off going to the dentist for a minor gum graft for over a year. I had been told it was a very painful. It turned out to be less painful than the toothache I had been putting up with. emoticon

    It's like tolerating being unfit. It's more painful in the long run than eating well and being physically active. There is no "perfect" time. Like the Nike commercial says, "Just do it!" emoticon
    3578 days ago
    Certainly worth the wait if you ask me!!!
    Thanks for finally climbing your.... er.... speedbump!! lol
    3579 days ago
    what a poetic entry Mary! You truly are insightful when it comes to your health journey, and your clever discoveries only help others like me onward on our own journey. Thank you for this entry, because it is true that sometimes we just need to put one foot in front of the other to get over that mountain that we've been dreading! emoticon
    3579 days ago
    You are a wonderful and eloquent writer...You really have put it out there, but in a special and motivating way...I should be writing more too!
    You are very special! This a struggle we can do together...
    3579 days ago
    emoticon Everyone is right, put that big toe in more often...I just love your blogs BK. Please never doubt the value of your blogs... I get so much from them and wish you wrote more! Seriously, I always check to see if you posted anything new...sometimes I reread your old You have a special way with words.

    Making molehills into mountains is something we all are prone to. The overwhelming fear of failure can be crippling sometimes and keeps us from our goals and dreams. We do fail when we don't try. I love your statement on your page "failing is only failure, if you quit". I keep your words in my head for those times when I don't feel like trying anymore. It's so much easier to give up or not try...we don't give up on others, so why ourselves? We are so much harder on ourselves in so many ways.

    Taking that first step is often so hard, but like you said, even if we are facing a mountain, the only way to do it is one step at a time. I just read a blog about Baby Steps and I say: crawl, take baby steps, do whatever...if you're moving forward you're still moving in the right direction.

    Thank you for writing such an inspirational blog and please do let that writer inside come out more often!

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    Comment edited on: 6/16/2010 2:51:51 PM
    What a wonderful blog.

    I can see you ahead of me on the rise towards the summit and am truly encouraged. I don't need to catch up with you, but am comforted to know you blaise the way. Even if I meander round the foothills, from time to time the inspiration still draws me forward.

    Thank you.

    3579 days ago
    thank your for the blog.. I love reading your blogs and comments.
    3579 days ago
    Attagirl, Mar - keep looking up. You will climb farther and higher than you ever thought possible! emoticon
    3579 days ago
    Mary, I'm so glad you stuck that big toe in.

    You have so much to say and you say it so eloquently. Thanks for the reminder. I tend to put things off and they turn into big mountains ... or so it seems. When I tackle them, they are usually just little molehills. I'm left thinking ... 'why do I waste all the time and energy creating so much out of something so easy?"

    This blog couldn't have been written at a better time ... I have some challenges to attend to ... thanks!
    3579 days ago
    Well hallelujah! I'm so glad you stuck that big toe back into the blogosphere. You're so thoughtful and uplifting that I just love reading your comments and now I can look forward to getting to know you better in your blog. Glad you just went ahead and did it.
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    3579 days ago
    WOW, you need to stick your toe in more often, great writing and lots of deep thinking. Thanks for the picture you created, instead of 1 day at a time, I'm thinking 1 step at a time. Thanks and have a great day!
    3579 days ago
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    Wow! Mary you probably didn't know that such a great blog was going to come out of you when you began to write. This really is true. Sticking our big toe into the water and then move beyond our comfort zone is the probably the hardest step. I think we fear the first step because we fear that we won't be able to commit to making the changes we need to in order to accomplish what we need to accomplish. We fear failure, so we fear beginning and continuing. I think it's a natural way for us as humans to feel. We are such creatures of habit, that it's hard to stop and make a change. But then as we make the effort and do something and then feel some success, it becomes easier and more natural to do that thing and we thought was so difficult. Then we feel the exhilaration of success! And what a blessing that is! Thanks for a great thought! Bless you!

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    3579 days ago
    We all need to be reminded of the Yonder Vistas occasionally. It is so darn easy to get focused on the Mountain in front of us that we lose sight of the easier 'molehills' that will get us up the Mountain.

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    3579 days ago
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