Need some support, some reflection, and a little motivation.
Sunday, June 20, 2010
This should be MY time. RIGHT NOW. I feel as if I have committed myself to the task at hand, and I knew vacation at my parents would be HARD. I admittedly stepped out of bounds from my food program and used the same old excuses; "I am on vacation, I DESERVE this", I am on vacation and it isn't FAIR to ask everyone to eat what I must eat", I am on vacation and I DON'T WANT to have to track food, or watch what I eat". Well, all those old excuses worked, I ate what and when I wanted, didn't do one iota of exercise for the last 7 days - and today when I stepped on the scale, I paid the price. I gained 3 pounds. I know this isn't the end of the world - after all, it is only 3 little pounds. But I worked SO HARD to lose them! It took me 3 weeks to lose them and 7 days to gain them back! I know I must pick myself up and start again. I know I must accept I will not meet my short term 4th of July goal. I know I must accept it is a lifestyle change that I must always follow. Just as the alcoholic can not risk a drink, I can risk the old excuses to eat what I want.
So today, I step back off the scale, and down into what I know must happen to achieve the results I hope for. But today, it is hard.