Oh look it's the 1st July!!!!
Thursday, July 01, 2010
Okay so I haven't exactly been an active spark member lately and I haven't blogged for a while, a long while for me!! I haven't blogged simply because my weight loss hasn't gone so well. The scales have been going up each month, only for me to panic and then limit the damage by restricting myself again for a while. All in all I started the year at 160lbs, got down to 152lbs by 1st March and hit 169 last month as well. Today I weigh 162lbs. This is a 1lb increase from the 1st June........my monthly stats are up 1-2lbs for the past few months, agghhhhhh!!!
So why the problem staying 'on track'. I got too strict with myself in the lead up to Christmas, feeling bad if I ate over 1200 calories. Then since Christmas I have had the binge eating mentality and I've been battling with getting better eating habits again, rather than lose weight. Although of course I have wanted to lose too!!
Right now I have been eating well for the past few days, most of last month was better in terms of binging and my attitude to losing is optimistic.
I haven't counted calories for a while as I beat myself up when I saw a higher number, but I am making myself count again and also making myself have some higher calorie days at the weekend. At the moment I don't want to put the higher calorie days in, but I know that having 1550 calories is not really high and I will still lose weight, even though my brain wants me to be stricter - we know where that leads though, restricting, followed by binging in a repeat cycle!!
My goals for the month are to:
Get my weight back under 160
Get my weight back into the 10 stones (153, so may not happen this month)
Work out at the gym 3-5 days per week
Figure out an exercise plan for the school holidays!!!
Track my foods every day, no matter what!
Enjoy every day and remember all the positives in myself
I really really really want to be at the point where I don't feel the need to lose any more weight and I know that I am close to that! I am pretty happy with how I look and that last bit of weight to come off will leave me with a not perfect body, but one that I will appreciate!! I want to be feeling slim this summer and making the most of my summery clothes!!
Time to go..........I want to thank all my spark friends who have stopped by my page over the last few months - even if I haven't been around much, I have always read your messages and been grateful for your support, xxx