trying to climb back up the slide
Thursday, July 01, 2010
when my brother was little, my grandparents and cousins all went on a summer vacation to the smokeys...my brother wasnt the best swimmer and was less than happy about being in the water, but seeing all the other kids having a blast sliding down the slide, decided to give it a go....
little did he realize how deep the water was on that end and so once he got close to the end of the slide, he grabbed hold of the sides and held on and started trying to climb back up, but others were sliding and he had to give in and just go into the deep end...
i guess that is the way i have felt the last few days, about this knee surgery tomorrow.
like, i am hanging on, and cant decide if i should just let go, or hold on.
i know i need the surgery and everyone says its ok, its no biggie, its a simple procedure and the doctor acts like hes just spreading butter on a roll...something u do without much fanfare or thought.
by around 10 am tomorrow i should be on the operating table, and dread just continues to build inside.
its about the stupiest things, like, hating to be naked under the gown, my sister works in the surgical recovery and she told me to just keep my underwear on if i want to, she said alot of ppl do.
and its stuff like, my back hurting from laying for so long in one position.
the dryness of my mouth from the gas.
i guess i am just putting up roadblocks.
but anyway, just nerves, hopefully they give me some kickass drugs and i wont even know what i was so worried about..."way to go tube and baggie"...frank barone....
will update as soon as i am able to get back in front of the pc.
hope u all have a good weekend and a great 4th of july....will be watching the hot dog eating contest on tv and i better not see any of you there hahaha