Weight Loss Surgery Decision (follow up to Weight Loss Surgery Angst)
Saturday, July 03, 2010
I really want to thank everyone for the helpful suggestions and great support from my last blog. I love you crazy Sparkers!! So here is what I decided.
At my appointment with my GYN she suggested bariatric surgery but by then I had already made my mind up for sure that I would not be going down that path. Here was what I thought that finally convinced me.
1. I am an overeater. I eat mainly healthy food (though too many sweets) but way too much of it. I eat way beyond hunger when I'm out of control.
2. If I get surgery it will EITHER force me to get my overeating under control OR I won't be able to get it under control and I will be one of the people who initially lose weight only to gain it back.
3. If I gain it back then the only thing that has changed is the fact that I underwent risky surgery to eventually be the same weight.
4. If I get it under control that means that I AM capable of it which means I am capable without the surgery and now I have just had surgery on my stomach to try to get a problem in my head under control.
That final one was the clincher for me.
I know that this does work for some people...I just don't think that I would be one of them.
My GYN did ask me to see a nutritionist because she feels like I have an eating disorder. I said that I don't feel like a nutritionist could help me. I KNOW what I should be doing, and eating. I know what percentage of my diet should come from protein and fat and carbs. I KNOW a lot, but it's not the lack of knowledge that's making me fat. She then gave me a referral to a dietician who specializes in those with eating disorders so I'm going to try that. I've never really gotten any counseling for my eating issues.
I also said that I would want to be under 250 before I would consider getting pregnant (she had kind of skirted around the issue of actual #'s because I think that she didn't want to offend me) and she looked releived and said that I would be able to have a very healthy pregnancy at that weight. This all has really lit a new fire under me. That is 100 lbs and I really do feel that I can do that in a year. It is my new goal.
She also did say that my very regular cycles (27-29 days) was a very good sign.
So that's what I'm going to shoot for. I left my Dr's office yesterday and went straight to the gym. I also logged my food for the first time in a couple of weeks AND was well within my ranges.