Do you ever stop and think - - how did I get to HERE?
Tuesday, August 03, 2010
Lately, during this journey of self discovery I find myself asking, "How did I get to this point in my life?" I must say that for the most part I am pleased at the direction my health discovery is taking me. I have adopted some different attitudes this go round. I track, track, track calories, expenditures and expect no surprises on weigh in day. If it's been a bad week - I see it coming and plan a path of correction. I have made the conscious decision to not go it alone. I hold myself accountable to my Spark Buddy's and try to touch base with them, give them support, and ASK for support when I need it. I have made the conscience decision to "blog" and get issues out where I can see them in the light of day.
But I find myself fighting a personal issue these days with not being happy with my "space" in this world. I worked VERY hard to acquire the position I had until 2 months ago - when my position was eliminated and I was sent packing into a new job, two pay grades down, with minimal responsibility and minimal travel. Quite a change for me. I have struggled with the fact that I was a manager for the last 25 years of my life - and now I am not. I have also struggled with "what" I am doing and find myself wishing to lapse into another career altogether!
So I am on a journey of self discovery- wondering "what" I want to do next. Job hunting is daunting at best, in an environment not friendly to job hunters. I do not want to sabotage my weight and health journey with the coming "depression" of decisions that will need to be made. So for today, for this moment I will concentrate on "finding" where I want to be and controlling the one part of the me I can continue to build. My health.
Onward and upward.