Meltdown and certainly that SCALE CAN'T BE RIGHT!!!!
Saturday, August 07, 2010
Ok, so last week was bad. Real bad. And yesterday - wow - I had a total food meltdown. I truly felt like an addict! I planned my escape from my cube to the vending machine. Seriously - planned it like an all out assault. My friend who sits a cube over is a MARATHONER who knows of my many weight struggles. I waited until he had gone to a meeting to make my run so he wouldn't know. Then - I grabbed my cash and DASHED to the machine! Hey - dashing is a form of exercise right? As in Santa's reindeer - dash away, dash away, dash away all! I knew in my head what it was going to be - my old nemesis Lay's Potato Chips. So I dashed to the machine and - what's this - Wasabi Crunch Mix? Mmmmm - I love Wasabi Peas, and there in the machine a few racks over from my beloved Lay's Potato Chips were this new foe. I immediately put in my dollar and punched the number for the Wasabi Crunch Mix. 190 CALORIES! As I started to walk away - there in the machine with the puppy dog eyes were my Lays. He looked so sad, so I threw another dollar in and grabbed all 160 calories of him too! Dashing back to my pod, I had those Lay's chips open before I sat down and in my mouth and gone before the clocked ticked off another minute. I did however, savor the Wasabi Crunch mix, thinking it best if I just lay it out on a napkin and nibbled while I worked. That's right - nibbled, for about 3 minutes until it was gone. Did I mention for the first time I buried my evidence beneath some papers in the trash?
I don't even think I will mention the pizza and pepperoni sticks from Vocellis - my favorite Pittsburgh pizza - that I ordered when I got home. and since this isn't a blog about success - the scale this morning CAN'T be right? I mean I know it has been a REALLY bad week, but I just don't think that number can be actual body fat? Maybe some fluid from the MASSIVE amounts of sodium?
Here's to climbing back up on the wagon, and trudging in a FORWARD direction next week. I choose NOT to let this setback derail my entire journey. See ya all next week folks. I think I may wallow in self pity for a day.