Tuesday, August 10, 2010
Well I went and saw the cardiac surgeon this morning. I found out that my heart didn't have any need for a stint and had no blockages at all. If my regular cardiologist agrees I'll be able to drop my heart medications. It seems that all these years my problem is due to my genetic make up. My vessels going to a few major parts of the heart are small. This most likely will be a problem in about thirty years and something I guess is useful now. I am just sort of pissed off that I was put through all the tests and chaos and had to reschedule the knee surgery for Sept 27. I had originally planned for April. I would have had it yesterday if not for this heart procedure. So much for planning. I do have the necessary medical go ahead. Hurray I also know that even being faced with grief from his family that my friend Bill has my back.!! I just could have done without all the drama and rush for surgery. I know now that I need to make a will. My sons would not honor my last wishes if it went against what there dad wanted,so much for loyalty...For the record I think or actually know the only person I'd trust to take care or distribute my possessions is Bill. I need to raise six hundred dollars to file a will and a separation. My next goals are still in place. I know I still need to loose weight . I don't need any special diets just one that is healthy, nothing low sodium or heart healthy. I need to get back on track and start pedaling my bike and increase my exercising. I appreciate all the advice. I am still taking baby steps forward and have my goals firmly set. I don't know what hubby problems are, whether they are mental, medical or booze but they start about four each day. I know I can't live this way any longer then necessary and I do take steps to protect myself and my animals. I am keeping all the advice emails and helpful suggestions. It is one day at a time with my goals of a new knee and a new life. Once I know about what money I'll have legally I can look for a place and contact agencies for help and advice as to where to move and how to get there. Bill is still trying to settle his matters and move in/ That would give me a buffer and a chance to save money for a more and rent money. He is my best friend and things are better when he has come to visit but permanently I'd hate having him put in the middle of my chaos and problems with hubby. I always think be careful what you wish for. I'll just need to see what God has planned for me. My plans sure haven't gone on schedule. Ii haven't given up just rearranged things.