Learning how to see progress.
Friday, August 13, 2010
My motivation this week has been somewhat lacking - I continue to have to work at reminding myself to do the things I know are right for me but don't seem very fun, like cooking healthy or keeping track of my calories or exercising. I'm proud that I've managed to do that every day this week despite my lack of oomph and am looking forward to seeing what the scale says tomorrow morning.
One of the motivators has been seeing the inches drop off, although there's still room for lots of improvement there. Tonight though, I did something I haven't done since before I started SparkPeople. I pulled out my wedding dress and tried it on.
We're getting married in less than three months now, and I have to start thinking about alterations. I ordered my dress back in March and refused to actually let them measure me, I didn't want to know how bad it was. I'd been lucky and tried it on in the right size at another store and so knew I would be okay with the size I ordered, but I wouldn't let them confirm it. I then spent the next three months (until the dress arrived) dreading and wondering if it wouldn't fit and had I totally screwed everything up?
Fortunately, when the dress arrived, it fit. A little tight in places (ok, a lot tight in places), but it fit and could be zipped up. I wasn't 100% thrilled with how some of the spots at the hip bunched up because my hips were too wide, but I hoped that the corset back that I'm having added would be able to deal with them.
With all of the inches I've dropped since starting though, I couldn't resist it. I had to know. I pulled the dress out of the closet where it's living right now and made my fiance zip me up into it (he was there when I tried it on the first time, so it's not like he hadn't seen it). And it lay flat in the places it was supposed to! I don't have to worry about the corset back fixing things around the hips because it had smoothed itself out with the weight I've lost there. It was a lot less tight all over and I feel really good about all the progress I've seen so far. :)
I definitely find myself wanting the results immediately and not being good about remembering how long this weight took to put on. I want to snap my fingers and have it gone instantly and I get frustrated when I can't drop 2 pounds a week. But this...this was a result that mattered. I love how this dress makes me look. I love that I feel like I fit into the size I should now, and things aren't being bunched up because I'm squeezing into a dress that's too small for me. I've got curves and this dress loves my curves and shows them off and I can't wait to wear it on my wedding day. I can't wait to go into my fitting even and have the top fit so that it looks even better and even closer to what I envision.
No matter what number the scale tells me tomorrow morning, I've got a shot of motivation that really mattered and really makes a difference. And it's so wonderful to have that. It really helps keep me pushing on when the results aren't immediate like I wish they were. And I know it doesn't have to be my wedding dress. It could be the old pair of jeans, or a new shirt, just something that gives you confidence in how you look and lets you see the results you've achieved so far, instead of focusing on how much further you have to go.
It's definitely a lesson I needed this week. :)