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Wednesday, September 08, 2010
This blog is inspired by my favorite group on Spark People!! I was going to post on the thread but decided that I had too much to say!! So ... here goes ..
- I still love the Done Girls?? Even tho I have been MIA for quite some time...
- I have been in denial for quite some time about my attitude and my weight??
- I am working on a few things ... LIKE my bad attitude!!
- I have missed being on here!!
- I know the only way I can make this happen is to just do it!!
- I need to stop making excuses!!
- I let myself cry this morning, over my weight!! That is huge for me, because I don't let myself cry over too much anymore .. well .. whe it comes to me ... I guess for some reason, I don't feel that \I am worth the tears!!
- I look at my sparkpage and don't even recognize that happy girl ..
- I just want to be happy again .... really happy .. not putting on a happy face, fake happy!
- I want to feel good again ..
- I have become such a procrastinator
- I don't know what else to say!
I really don't know what else to say. I have had so much of other peoples junk heaped on me in the past year or so that I have felt competely beat down .. or loaded down.
When it comes to me and what I need .... I won't jump out of bed and get to it ... I wil forothers ... but .. not for myself ... part of the whole avoidance thing!!
I know what I need to do ... I know how to fix it ... I am just reluctant to do it ... that reason has eluded me. The reason I love food so mch has eluded me as well.
I just need to stop making excuses and just get off my butt!!!
**sighs** Maybe one day I will get back to the happy person in the those pics! I have a lot to be thankful for ... I have such a blessed life!! Maybe I should start there .. with what I do have!! And forget about what was or could be ... an d just focus on what I need to do now!
Just putting my thoughts out there ... hopefully getting them out will help clear my head some!!!