And again....and again.....and again......here we go again.....

I guess everyone goes through times through this journey where they have set backs. But this wasn't just a set back. I just gave up. I let all of this over come me again. I decided I was tired of trying and that nothing was going to work and that i couldn't do it.

The other night though when I laid down to go to bed, I felt like my ribs were being crushed under all my weight. And I thought to myself, that is not very healthy. So, I thought again, this is it, I am going to get this weight off. Of all the the weight I had lost I had gained most of it back. At least it wasn't all of it and plus but and gain back isn't good. So I decided I am going to just start over. Not pick up where I left off. I decided I am going to try a different strategy with this. Instead of just changing everything all at once, I am going to make changes a few at time. That way, I think then its more of a LIFESTYLE change and not just a DIET change. I am also going to judge a lot of my success not just in the numbers on the scale, but also in the way that my clothes fit the most. I will still weigh in every couple of weeks, but I am not going to do it every day like I was before. Changing up my exercise everyday is another thing I have though about doing.

Maybe doing it this way and fitting it into my life instead my making my life fit into this, I will have more success. I know I have the support of my friends and my family. And I know that many people on here in the same place I am. That is comforting in some aspect, but in others it can seem daunting. Because then it feels like you are letting everyone down. But then its not supposed to feel that way is it? Its so I am not going to make this about everyone else and what they think. I am not doing this for THEM I am doing this for ME. So if I am getting their slowly then that is fine as long as I am getting there.