Monday, September 13, 2010
My BMI is 26.7. "Overweight." I'm sad to see how much weight I'm carrying in my face, my jowels. I used to have such nice, sharp cheekbones. Now I'm puffy. I'm not dressing to flatter, either. Things are just too clingy, so I'm wearing things that are more unstructured and baggy to hide what's going on underneath.
I want to get down 20 pounds, to 150. That's a BMI of 23.5 - "normal weight." When I was 150 I used to tuck my shirt in. I wore lower-wasted pants. And I didn't layer, layer, layer. I was happy in a cute t-shirt and pants. No vest, no sweatshirt, just a t-shirt.
And I was confident. I walked with my head held high. I let my arms fall at my sides and I casually held my purse over my shoulder. I didn't slouch, I didn't hold my purse or a child over my torso. I liked peeking at my reflection.
I will get there again. That would get me to a BMI of 23.5, well within the "normal weight" range.
Ideally, I'd like 140. But being 5'7", I haven't weighed that little since high school. That might be pushing my luck. But 150 is definitely attainable, with a lot of work. I will get there!