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Tuesday, September 21, 2010

Gee what happened to the Monday blog..not sure why but I was having issues and it would not post, I could not get goodies to send either....I finally did get the goodies to send and just gave up on the blog.....
Tonight's blog is about me sending cards and pictures to my Aunts and Uncles, that I have not seen for 5 years or more....I think it's about time I let them see how much I have changed.

I think it's time for me to try and get out more spread my wings and let people who care about me see...I have been reluctant to do so in case I gain the weight back..
I still remember years back when I had lost a lot of weight and then went back to visit and heard some family remembers talking about me, They said well she is so fat again, she gained it all back, what is wrong with her, why can't se stop eating so's just so terrible. I think she will always be fat....she has such a pretty face if only she wasn't so fat...
I left with out saying good bye, and went back to Colorado a few days early, no one ever asked me why........I think I cried for the first 1000 miles , and have always felt so ashamed....5 years ago I went for a family reunion and they just looked at me with sadness on their faces. no one dared to say a I'm a bit nervous about this but want them to see before they pass away and I don't get back to see them....
So have a healthy Wednesday, think positive , and love yourself no matter what you weigh



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    Send those cards and pictures and be PROUD of all that you have accomplished! I once read that failure is not falling is not getting back up and honey you have definatly picked yourself (and others) back up! So send those cards and pictures and know that your friends here care about the real you..the successful YOU!
    3338 days ago
    You also have a good day. Let go of the past, it's done

    "Worry doesn't empty tomorrow of its sorrows,
    It empties today of it's strength"
    3338 days ago
    Kitt sparks was acting up think they again were updating...I could not even get on for over 4 hours...
    still missed your blog --lol...

    Kitt Kitt Kitt you have to let the past go you know that who cares what anyone thinks ...YOU are the only person who counts...what do you think of YOU?
    the anwer to that --a powerful fit healthy woman who cares deeply and is a giver... hugs kisses JO
    3338 days ago
    my weight has put a wedge between my mother and I but it is her loss that she chooses not to be my friend
    3339 days ago
    emoticon I understand how you feel. I think my family doubts I can do it.
    3339 days ago
    emoticon I hope you feel the love that we are wrapping around you now! You are one fantastic lady!

    Hugs! Beverly
    3339 days ago
    emoticon to help ease the pain of comments made by rude people who don't understand your efforts.

    emoticon on all you have achieved in pursuing a healthier life for yourself!!!!

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    3339 days ago

    Comment edited on: 9/21/2010 10:53:11 PM
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    One big time difference! Five yrs. ago you didn't have the marvelous Spark njetwork behind you! emoticon cross ouy can as you need the word have done it. yOU WILL CONTINIE TO HAVE DONE IT!
    3339 days ago
    Your memories of all the family chatter may be the very thing that is pushing you to share the 'new you'. By showing them what you have done, all by yourself, no surgery, just exercise and eating healthy, you are committing yourself to continuing this new lifestyle so you don't have to face that torment again. You go, girl!
    3339 days ago
    emoticon !!!!

    I've had the same problems with some of my relatives, Kitt. And, like you, I did lose this weight once and then gained it all back (plus more) and it is so hard to face the people again who saw me skinny...way too embarrassing to let them see me fat, and just easier to not see them at all. And my own father -- I was going back East several years ago to visit my grandmother (his mom), who was having health issues. I hadn't seen my aunt and uncle (his brother/s-i-l) for 30 years, so they'd never seen me as big as I was. Know what my father told them when he found out I was going to visit? "Make sure you have a good bed -- she's big." Gee, thanks, Dad.

    It's hard to face family when they talk about you that way, and it's hard not to be embarrassed. I can relate to your reluctance. You are also right in that everyone is getting older and if you want to spend time with them, you need to do it while they're alive. You are doing great, Kitt. I know it's really hard, but be very proud of what you've accomplished and don't let the whispers derail you. Hold your head high and be proud and strong. You are totally awesome and if they can't appreciate what you've done, it's their loss. You are still a winner regardless!

    3339 days ago
    Good luck
    3339 days ago
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