Tuesday, September 21, 2010
Gee what happened to the Monday blog..not sure why but I was having issues and it would not post, I could not get goodies to send either....I finally did get the goodies to send and just gave up on the blog.....
Tonight's blog is about me sending cards and pictures to my Aunts and Uncles, that I have not seen for 5 years or more....I think it's about time I let them see how much I have changed.
I think it's time for me to try and get out more spread my wings and let people who care about me see...I have been reluctant to do so in case I gain the weight back..
I still remember years back when I had lost a lot of weight and then went back to visit and heard some family remembers talking about me, They said well she is so fat again, she gained it all back, what is wrong with her, why can't se stop eating so much.....it's just so terrible. I think she will always be fat....she has such a pretty face if only she wasn't so fat...
I left with out saying good bye, and went back to Colorado a few days early, no one ever asked me why........I think I cried for the first 1000 miles , and have always felt so ashamed....5 years ago I went for a family reunion and they just looked at me with sadness on their faces. no one dared to say a word....so I'm a bit nervous about this but want them to see before they pass away and I don't get back to see them....
So have a healthy Wednesday, think positive , and love yourself no matter what you weigh