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Caution Construction Ahead

Saturday, October 09, 2010

Under Construction Saturday for the ((((( Sending SKINNY Vibes! )))) SparkTeam

This whole process is really frustrating the heck out of me. I’m older now, 48, so all the things I’ve done in the past to drop weight don’t work as well as they used to. Plus I have some health issues that interfere with my plans and life as a whole.

I’ve been on Spark People since September 1st, and had a 3 pound loss my first week, only to gain six following a crisis situation that I obviously didn’t handle well. Since then I’m blocked, the weight is staying and my body keeps going through these flare ups of bad health.

Thankfully, during this period of NOTHINGNESS I’ve been reading The Spark, so it’s helped me to see that this isn’t a diet, it’s a lifestyle change and that slow and steady can still win the race. That’s not a mentality that I accept easily, but when I became ill with Chronic Fatigue Immune Deficiency Syndrome I learned that everything had changed and nothing will ever be what it was again. Now it’s learning to enjoy the life I have and quit mourning the life I used to have and the person I used to be and figure out who this new person is going to be.

Anyhow since I’m under Construction I’m going to do the exercise in Chapter 9 of the book, The Spark. Chris Downie says to make a list of 50-100 things you’d like to do in your lifetime. They can be big or small, practical or frivolous and from these “wants” perhaps I’ll be able to envision a more realistic vision of who I am again.

I guess it’s pretty obvious that part of my weight-loss-block is my poor, distorted self-image. However, weight has been an issue for me ever since I was a child, and with the exception of one brother, most of my family is heavy. I’ve dieted and studied nutrition enough that I could have another degree in it. I’ve obsessed about my weight since grade school; went to my first “quack doctor”, the kind that gives out diet pills, when I was in 9th grade. My parents did not go with me, and the guy took my blood pressure through my ski jacket!!!! I learned a long time ago that diet and exercise were a much better way to go, but then I became excessive with that when I was in ROTC in college.

My whole point in bringing that stuff up is that this time it’s a lifestyle change and I’m NOT going to take pills and I AM going to work on my issues by working through The Spark’s visualization and goal setting to see who the Susan is that comes through this journey.
Eventually those pounds will come off. Eating right and exercising always works sometimes just not as fast as I'd like. emoticon emoticon
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  • BARBEWIT
    Susan...the best advice that I can give you is to take one day at a time. We are like babies, we need to learn how to crawl before we can learn how to walk. So start crawling with eating more fruits and veggies, drinking plenty of water and keeping your chin up.....for one day we will learn how to walk and it will become easier. emoticon
    3585 days ago
  • PURPLESPEDCOW
    I also have a motto. Today is day one, I can do this for just today. then when I get up the next day, guess what I am back on day one! Every day is day one! Try it. It might help. Everyone can do anything for one day! You can to.
    3588 days ago
  • CJWORDPLAY
    You are so right, this IS a life style change. That is such a huge concept to try to wrap my brain around. Like you, I've spent most of my life trying to control my weight using the wrong methods. Well - at least we have proved that those things don't work!! emoticon

    You are moving in a good direction - but like the trapeze artist - we have to learn to let go of the "old" diet bar - all the while hoping that the "new" strategies will catch and hold us. Scary, isn't it?

    If it helps to know that others are hanging in there with you, then you can count me as another one who is under construction.

    CJ emoticon
    3588 days ago
  • WISEDIETER
    Seeing the Susan who comes through this journey are probably one of the most important words written in this blog Susan to start to recognise ones ownself and value who you are will be the biggest support you can give yourself. You are doing great set backs do come but they also go it is just the staying power that gets you there so I send you great skinnny vibes and best wishes keep on the journey
    3588 days ago
  • SUNFLOWERGAL50
    Dang! I didn't mean to send it 3 times! It wasn't that great of advice! LOL So sorry! emoticon
    3588 days ago
  • SUNFLOWERGAL50
    Your history with "dieting" is one very similar to mine. I've always joked that my struggle with weight started at birth as I was a nearly 11 pound baby! This journey with SparkPeople has been very different. No, it's not as fast as I want it to be, but it is making lasting changes that are making my life better and better. Slow and steady wins the race has actually become my motto! Hang in there! Keep reading! I have learned so much from just reading on here. YOU CAN DO THIS! emoticon
    3588 days ago
  • SUNFLOWERGAL50
    Your history with "dieting" is one very similar to mine. I've always joked that my struggle with weight started at birth as I was a nearly 11 pound baby! This journey with SparkPeople has been very different. No, it's not as fast as I want it to be, but it is making lasting changes that are making my life better and better. Slow and steady wins the race has actually become my motto! Hang in there! Keep reading! I have learned so much from just reading on here. YOU CAN DO THIS! emoticon
    3588 days ago
  • SUNFLOWERGAL50
    Your history with "dieting" is one very similar to mine. I've always joked that my struggle with weight started at birth as I was a nearly 11 pound baby! This journey with SparkPeople has been very different. No, it's not as fast as I want it to be, but it is making lasting changes that are making my life better and better. Slow and steady wins the race has actually become my motto! Hang in there! Keep reading! I have learned so much from just reading on here. YOU CAN DO THIS! emoticon
    3588 days ago
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