I Think I Can Do This
Thursday, October 14, 2010
I'm a weight loss lame-o. I've done nothing but maintain this year, and yet I've been exercising and dieting all year. So what is the issue? I've been DIETING, not changing my lifestyle.
However... I think some things have clicked for me this past couple weeks.
This blog is gonna be all over the place, but I just have to get these thoughts down. I've been so stressed the past several months. Personal relationships have been in flux. Work has been tough. And I think I've been trying to control things that I really have no control over. And work...oh my gosh, work has been so stressful that sometimes I feel CRUSHED under the weight of it all. I had continued exercising, in fact increased my exercise. But to handle the stress I had been eating for pleasure, eating too much, and drinking. Not a *whole* lot, but I rarely drink alcohol and all of a sudden I was drinking a couple drinks a couple nights a week.
Here is the weird part. Somehow, someway, I just woke up a few days ago and I was ok. I really don't know how. But I am. My mood is better, even though nothing really has changed in my life EXCEPT ME.
Last night I continued my pattern of not eating well. Except this time I noticed it. This time it wasn't for pleasure, or for stress relief. This time is was the continuation of a pattern that I had set. And I recognized it and I realized I don't have to do this. I felt over full. I felt icky.
And thinking of changing my eating patterns didn't fill me with despair. It was okay, it was something I could do.
I think I can do this.