Thursday, October 28, 2010
TODAY IS MY OFFICIAL SPARK YEAR ANNIVERSARY. I have come a long way with a lot of physical speed bumps. I have not my met my goals but I am maintaining with in a five pound range and still have my goals in place and my physical recovery is lining up. I am getting neck surgery. I have found a surgeon in Modesto which is further away then I like to travel, however he was recommend by neurologist. I need to do two more tests before the surgery date will be set. More of my neck needs to be operated on then first anticipated. I will recovery swiftly and then get back in line for my knee to be replaced. I want to actually be able to walk without limping or hobbling or leaning on poor Mara. My biggest challenge is eating healthy and trying to exercise on those days I can sit up and move. I do a lot of stretching and other bed exercises but they don't really burn calories and with inactivity I don't know how much to eat or whether I am eating enough or too much on some days.
Hubby is finally not working against me.( at least not diet wise). He no longer buys cookies, ice cream and unhealthy snacks. He now needs to eat healthy too. He has diabetes and is taking both oral and injections for it. Karma got him. I have been waiting for this for years. His birthday is this Saturday and he turns 69. He is twelve years older then I am and has been lording it over me how much better his healthy was then mine and how disabled I was compared to him and all that he could do that I could no longer do. Be careful out there your evil thought will come back and get you.
Thank god for best friends. Mine has been traveling to take me to the doctors. My car is still not fixed and dear hubby most likely will never help me get it fixed. It is hard for my friend he has a lot of the same physical problems I have. I also have leaned heavily on him since he was a phone call away and my spark family was a little further. I have had some bad reactions to some new medication like major depression and have come close to suicide a few times. I am no longer taking these nasty drugs. I felt like they were poison to my body. I have returned to the regular me. I am trying to rely on the pain lidocaine patches more then the morphine. It was a nerve drugs that did me in. Not pain medication.
On a daily basis I still have faith , hope and my service girl Mara .
Thank you to all my spark friends and teams. I will get back to the huddles and posting as my body allows.