am i being really honest with myself or am i making excuses?

how committed am i?
do i really want this?
if i am really committed why haven´t i got to goal yet?
why haven´t i lost more?
why do i loose and keep putting back on?
does that mean i really don´t want to loose the weight in the first place?
what are my reasons for coming to spark people?
why to i stay?
are those reasons still valid?
do i still want this?is it worth it?
are my reasons for going away from my healthy lifestyle on occasions?
are those reasond real or just excuses?
can i let stress get the better of me?
should i let stress get the better of me?
do i know how i got big in the first place?
do i still do the same things that made me big ?
when yes why?
have i any self control?
have i any self esteem?
do i even know what the last two are?
what do i want from life?what do i have to do to get what i want out of life?
am i doing them?
if not why not?

here are just a few questions i ask myself everynow and then and it is something i think we should all ask ourself now and then no matter how far we are on this journey or even if we are where we want to be.the trick is being honest when you answer.only you know weather you are being honest or not.i know i haven´t been as honest as i could be with my self.if i had been i am sure i would be further in on my journey than i am so all i have to say is

TIME TO START GETTING HONEST:TIME TO START KICKING BUTT:

thankls for taking time to read this blog for me.hope it helps you clarify some areas in your life liked it helped me and please feel free to kick butt every now and again,my butt too.