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Looking for the Positive

Friday, November 12, 2010

This morning as I was riding the bike I was feeling a bit low, my birthday is in a couple of days. I remember the old times with my friends, we always planned a big dinner or lunch at our favorite place to eat, usually a place that gave huge portions or all you can stuff in ....most times it was even more than 1 meal.....and then there was that cake, I love chocolate cake with chocolate frosting with fudge between the layers... I could and would eat it for days....
But now my life has changed, my so called friends dumped me a few years back, seems once I lost the first 50 or 60 pounds and talked a lot about getting exercise and eating less, I become less valued ....it hurts to say it but true.....(we fat girls stick together and feel sorry for our selves for the way the world treats.....we talked about those skinny witches, who thought they were better than us.....)

BUT because I am a positive person I told myself I was a valued person, and I have friends now who like me the way I am ...in fact I have people we tell me I give them courage to loose weight, or I inspire them to reach there goals.....some day they do will know how wonderful it feels to be healthy and happy....So this week end, I'm going out to buy some new clothes with the knowledge that I can shop where ever I want , and buy what ever really looks good on me, not just fits.....I'm going to a romantic dinner with Gary as he is the love and joy of my life..he has stood by my side at 347 pounds and this day at 140.....he gives me the strength to say farewell to the old and move on the the better life I have worked so hard to reach...

I am also proud of myself for staying in my weight loss range my goal was 145, but I have stayed in the 138 to 142 range for almost 1 year......

I have a bright and healthy future a head of me... I will be 58 years old and I am in better shape than I have been in 30 or maybe 40 years.....at 138 I weigh less than when I was in 8th grade......I'm not looking back at what was but looking forward at what will be.....

I have SparkPeople and my Sparkfriends who have given me the courage to keep going and never ever give up.....

Thank You for the best gift of all your friendship...


HUGS


Kitt

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  • PENNYAN45
    Spark people not only gives us new friends - it gives us a whole village! There are so many warm, supportive people here - and lots of different communities and neighborhoods to discover. Last summer, I met up with a Spark friend who was traveling through my way. What fun that was!

    You are one of my sparks here. Thank you for that.!

    Have a GREAT birthday - and enjoy the time with your wonderful husband.

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    3286 days ago
  • no profile photo DEVORA4
    Kitt We should all turn the thanks around and say thanks for being our friend. You are a totally amazing lady and it is my great honor to know you. Happy happy Birthday dear lady!!! emoticon debby
    3286 days ago

    Comment edited on: 11/13/2010 3:30:15 AM
  • ANGIEBILL
    Oh Kitt!

    Happy Birthday to you my friend! May God continue to Bless you with faith, hope and happiness for you so richly deserve it! Thank you for being my friend!
    3286 days ago
  • WILD4STARS
    emoticon You are an inspiration!
    3286 days ago
  • WARMSPRINGDAY
    Happy birthday - and you are a person of value. Don't forget it! Treat yourself and enjoy. Be blessed!
    3286 days ago
  • LAINIESNEWLIFE
    Hope you have a great birthday weekend, Kitt!!! Take care!
    3286 days ago
  • no profile photo BUGSMIMI
    Kitt, Happy early Birthday, my friend! And may you have the best year ever, and may it lead to many many more!!
    3286 days ago
  • JKRAMER3
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  • TRAILWALKERJO54
    I am glad that my sis Mary came upon your blogs and shared your link with me..everyday I look forward to your blogs and marvel at your determination and your fortitude..
    I am blessed to know you through Sparks..

    have a great birthday you deserve the best time..

    hugs Jo
    3287 days ago
  • CHANSEN_20001
    Wow, you are an inspiration!!! Have a great birthday!!! Go shopping and enjoy!!!
    3287 days ago
  • BARBARAROSE54
    My inspiration Kitt. wishing you a happy birthday
    3287 days ago
  • 4A-HEALTHY-BMI
    Wow, that is a fantastic maintenance track record.

    Way to go!!!!!

    (And Happy Birthday. Wishing you many many happy returns.)

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    P.S. This is a VIRTUAL birthday cake. No calories!
    3287 days ago

    Comment edited on: 11/12/2010 12:00:22 PM
  • POSITIVELY_EB
    You are one of my heros, Kitt! I appreciate you continuing to talk about your ups and downs. It gives me strength to continue on!

    Hugs and early happy birthday!

    Beverly
    3287 days ago
  • JELLI-LEAN
    emoticon blog Kitt! Sounds to me like you got all of the bad influences and toxic people out of your life! Good for you!

    You do inspire me, Congrats for keeping that weight lower than your goal for almost a year! W00 H00!

    And...Happy Birthday early! Sounds like Gary is a keeper and and rootin for you !

    emoticon ~ Janel :)
    3287 days ago
  • HAPPYSOUL91
    You have really given me inspiration and hope that this time things will last and changes will be permanent.

    Be very happy to not have those "friends" around because they weren't concerned about your best interest only in staying the same.
    3287 days ago
  • RONIE11
    Happy Birthday Kitt... I know this is a bit early but I am hoping you go out and have a wonderful time... even order that piece of chocolate cake. I do know what you mean about people really not wanting to hang out.. I remember when spark was having me find other ways to treat myself that didn't have to do with food it was a whole new learing process.. not everyone wants to learn from us.. they want to be in denial and stay heavy... I was there... I didn't believe any of it..LOL until I bit the bullet and said I will do this for a little while and if nothing else we will get healthier... it worked.. LOL I'm so glad that you have made new friends that care for you for who you are now... you are an inspiration to us all..
    3287 days ago
  • SOCKITTOME
    *STANDING OVATION*

    Well said, Kitt. Well said. Thank you for being such an inspiration. It appears you have given us the best birthday present ever to help celebration your birthday: YOU! Have some major fun shopping, and I hope the evening out with Gary is the best birthday celebration yet. May you have many more!

    3287 days ago
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