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i will make u hurt!!!

Thursday, November 18, 2010

"""I hurt myself today
To see if I still feel
I focus on the pain
the only thing that's real
The needle tears a hole
the old familiar sting
try to kill it all away
but I remember everything

What have I become?
My sweetest friend
Everyone I know
goes away in the end
You could have it all
My empire of dirt
I will let you down
I will make you hurt

I wear this crown of sh*t
Upon my liar's chair
Full of broken thoughts
I cannot repair
Beneath the stains of time
the feelings disappears
You are someone else
I am still right here

What have I become?
my sweetest friend
Everyone I know
goes away in the end
You could have it all
my empire of dirt
I will let you down
I will make you hurt

If I could start again
a million miles away
I would keep myself
I would find a way..."""" Hurt by Nine Inch Nails.....

i was talking to some friends recently about this song and they all of course thought it was about drug abuse...which it most likely is, but it got me to thinking about how we hurt ourselves with every bad choice and for me lately food has been like the hurt of a drug....i hate it, i loathe how it makes me feel, i want to push it away, stop, stop the hurt, but it is just so tempting, so good, so enticing, drugs, sex, gambling, cheating, lying....eating???
so many understand the drug theme of this song, but what if it were about food addiction? it is too me, i am hurt, hurt hurt hurt....
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    Food addiction is very real, and perhaps more traumatic than other kinds of addiction. I was a raging alcoholic, I would start drinking around 11 am some days, four or five days a week...I was able to quit that. I smoked up to 2 packs of cigarettes a day for sixteen years...I quit that. Food is my last hurdle. It is the hardest thing I have ever had to do. I will not quit on myself, although I have gone up and down the scale (and am currently in the UP part now), I am unwilling to believe that this is to be my fate, to live in this body as is for the rest of my life. I am literally, fighting for my life now. It's not about fitting into the jeans or seducing my husband. This is my LIFE. I know what must be done, I only need to stick to my convictions, my plans, and move in the right direction one step at a time. That is all any of us can do.

    Best wishes, and thanks for reading my blog :)

    -(((((HUGHS))))) Rose
    3626 days ago
    How we hurt ourselves with food without even thinking how obesity and unhealthy eating are major causes of disease and pain. I know that obesity is a main cause of sleep apnea and I want to be rid of the mask. But apparently not enough to stop the overeating and lack of exercise. I am working on it as I know you are also. We can get through this and come out stronger on the other side.
    3629 days ago
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