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My gift for Thanksgiving

Wednesday, November 24, 2010

I had a hard time sleeping last night, no real reason that I could think of but like always it gave me time to think...

I talk with my sister a few days ago.. We talked about our child hood and other things, we were not very close as she is 6 years older and I was always that spoiled little sister who wanted attention......but it has worked it self out over the years but they still think of me as the little sister...the first time in my adult life I really am the little sister, I am the shortest, have the smallest feet and hands and weight the least as it should gives me great pride and joy to be able to say that.....
since I was 8 or 9 I was the chubby or fat sister....I always felt ashamed and guilty, people would always say why don't you do what your sisters do, they are both so beautiful, they had blond hair, flawless shin, wore the nicest stylish clothes.....and me plain jane, happy in my jeans, no make up...most of the time I pretended it did not bother me.....heck what could I do about it any way......(I still wear my jeans and no makeup)
I left home and moved to Colorado, mostly to get a fresh start on my life, some place where people would not keep reminding about those gorgeous sisters I had at home.....and because I really felt they were all ashamed of me...I mean who wants a 300+ sister, daughter, niece , grand daughter...who wants a tub of lard around...sorry to use those harsh words but it is how I felt....I was deeply sadden with myself..
Well I did very well here in Colorado, landed a good job, have lived a good life, own my own home drive a nice car, have friends, always get along with people....
and now I can say I have made a huge difference in my life, not just for myself but for my family, who BTW say they did not feel about me as I felt they did, my sister cried like a baby when I told her why I moved and how I felt...she said none of that was true and no one ever thought those things, but did admit she was concerned about my weight for my health...
well those conversations are way to deep to repeat but now I have sent everyone in my family my resent photo to share my gift of health with all of them....
They are so delighted and happy and it makes me feel like I have given the best gift of amount of money can buy( if money is the answer Oprah would be skinny)
any way I want to wish all my friends and family a very Happy Thanksgiving, I'm over joyed as this morning I was 138...down 1 more pound...and it has given me more reason to believe in myself, that no matter how hard it can be at times, food is not the answer to your problems...getting help from family and friends is the best cure for of all

the biggest hugs for you all..

I wish you all a safe and Happy Holiday season...


okay now back away from that food table and think do I really need to eat this to be a better will it feel tomorrow if I eat all this today.....
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    Wonderful blog.

    You know both me and my sister JO !! LOL!!
    She was always under weight as a child and I was always the chunky one--so I know how you felt.
    BUT look where you are today! Happy and healthy.

    You are my inspiration and one day we are going to meet in person.

    3277 days ago
    if money was the answer Oprah would be healthy --she can be skinny but not healthy... she is a heart attack waiting -- Dr. Oz has told her as Greene has told solves well almost nothing...

    have a great day tomorrow

    Happy Thanksgiving
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    3278 days ago
  • PUGRAD1995
    Have a wonderful Thanksgiving.
    3278 days ago
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    You are a hero to me and personal best ishes for a healthy and happy holiday! debby emoticon
    3278 days ago
    What a wonderful gift, a recent pic to share with your family so they can see the beautiful healthy lady you have become.

    Happy Thanksgiving !
    3279 days ago
    Thanks for sharing, Kitt.I always relate so much to you. I was the oldest of seven, and the only one with a fat issue; 2 sisters and 4 brothers, all slim, and I, too, always felt judged.
    I'm so happy for your continued weight loss, and needed to hear of your success today, bec I've been on shaky ground with yet another 100 pounds to go. Can't give up now. A man at my WW meeting this morning has lost 183 pounds and is maintaining for about 13 years now, God bless him!! So inspiring!
    Keep up the good work!So happy for you. Have a great Thanksgiving Day. emoticon emoticon
    3279 days ago
    Congratulations on losing another pound, Kitt!!!

    Hope you have a Happy Thanksgiving!!!

    3279 days ago
    How wonderful that you and your sister are connecting again an have banished all those old ghosts from the closets. Hope you have a wonderful holiday!
    3279 days ago
    Wow...what an awesome conversation with your sister! Isn't it always interesting to revisit old perspectives with the wisdom of the intervening years? All that matters now is that everyone has moved past that unhappy place, and you're developing a relationship you probably didn't have when you were younger. And you are totally right -- no amount of money can buy such a great gift as what you've received through your hard work and dedication these past few years!

    Happy Thanksgiving, Kitt. I hope this is the best of any more still to come!

    3279 days ago
    Fantastic blog, you really share your inner feelings. BTW, congratulations on another lb off
    3279 days ago
    I've been pondering the way I look at things lately. I often "read" my OWN interpretation into others actions and words that are not there. It causes hurt feelings on my part, which in turn give me an excuse to eat!

    Thank you for sharing with us today!

    Have a wonderful Thanksgiving holiday!!

    Hugs! Beverly
    3279 days ago
  • -POOKIE-
    emoticon thank you for sharing this, so very open x
    3279 days ago
    you are such a inspiration keep up the good work!!
    3279 days ago
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