Saturday, January 15, 2011
Okay so I signed up for two classes which I have to pass with a B or better to get into the Education class at UMASS Amherst. I am freaked out right now. I have to buy 5 books for my english class which is all online and have my first assignment due on Wednesday. Okay I am really scared and thinking of running the other way. I have tons of stuff on my plate as it is and now I am adding school. What the heck is wrong with me??? Before I was so sure I wanted this and now I am not. I feel like I have changed in a bad way as a person. I used to be a go getter and did whatever I put my mind too. NOw I feel like I just can't get stuff done. I think it all resorts back to weight loss. I started the journey 2 years ago. The first year went great and I lost 40 pounds. the next year I lost nothing and maintained. Since August of 2010 I have gained back 13 pounds. YIKES!!! Right now Ihave gone to the doctor and I am awaiting results from test. Ijust feel like I can't. I hate to say that cuz I am a positive person and right now I don't feel that way. I just don't know what to do. I don't know how to get out of it. I haven't been to the gym in 5 weeks but I have been trying to keep busy and workout onthe wii. I have been sick for months (3). I hope the doctor has some good news for me I hate feeling this way. So I just feel like now is not the time to take on school but I am already set up for it and the bill is in the mail. I need to get this attitude in check and face it head on. Get all the negativity out of me and full it with positive. I want to scream from the roof tops. That didn't help what is next.?