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Saturday, January 15, 2011

Okay so I signed up for two classes which I have to pass with a B or better to get into the Education class at UMASS Amherst. I am freaked out right now. I have to buy 5 books for my english class which is all online and have my first assignment due on Wednesday. Okay I am really scared and thinking of running the other way. I have tons of stuff on my plate as it is and now I am adding school. What the heck is wrong with me??? Before I was so sure I wanted this and now I am not. I feel like I have changed in a bad way as a person. I used to be a go getter and did whatever I put my mind too. NOw I feel like I just can't get stuff done. I think it all resorts back to weight loss. I started the journey 2 years ago. The first year went great and I lost 40 pounds. the next year I lost nothing and maintained. Since August of 2010 I have gained back 13 pounds. YIKES!!! Right now Ihave gone to the doctor and I am awaiting results from test. Ijust feel like I can't. I hate to say that cuz I am a positive person and right now I don't feel that way. I just don't know what to do. I don't know how to get out of it. I haven't been to the gym in 5 weeks but I have been trying to keep busy and workout onthe wii. I have been sick for months (3). I hope the doctor has some good news for me I hate feeling this way. So I just feel like now is not the time to take on school but I am already set up for it and the bill is in the mail. I need to get this attitude in check and face it head on. Get all the negativity out of me and full it with positive. I want to scream from the roof tops. That didn't help what is next.?
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  • 19ELISE
    Stay in class. Once you start, you will find it challenging but rewarding as well. It will give you a feeling of accomplishment and maybe that feeling will spill into other parts of your life. What is the worst that can happen? You could fail? We all fail for time to time, but we learn. Experience is sometimes more valuable than outcome. You can well in class, you can be more consistent going to the gym, you can reach your goals but you CAN'T give up!
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  • JCARDINAL
    Don't get to hard on yourself Jenn. You have been sick for 3 months and that is draining in itself. Hopefully the Doctor will have some answers for you. On school, congratulations! That is something I have often thought of. Once you get into a rhythum you will find a way to balance everything. I have been struggling with motivation because my road to weight loss is slow with all my meds but this week I found my spark again. You will find yours again I just know it! emoticon
    3602 days ago
  • SWEETTOOTH10
    Stress Really saps your energy and spirit. You'll find ways to balance your time.It takes time and working at it bit by bit, But things will fall back into place.Hope you get some postive news from the DR. emoticon emoticon
    3602 days ago
  • AFTERMYKIDS
    It's going to be OK Jenn. I know the stress and being sick really has sucked. Remember what you did when you lost those 40 pounds. YOU are going to get back there! emoticon As for the school, Yes it will be hard to balance everything but once you get it in a routine, MAYBE it will be just what you need. Get away from everything and enjoy yourself. (Yes I said enjoy yourself at school) emoticon I hope you get some good news from the doctor too! emoticon
    3603 days ago
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