100 Days to Change
Wednesday, January 19, 2011
There is 100 days until my birthday. Okay it’s actually 98 now but I decided to begin this new path two days ago. I have the next 98 days to work on figuring out who I am and what I want. I have been on a plateau for too long now and every time I start to break through something happens. Basically I have been virtually standing still and getting more frustrated by the day and I need to break through and make something change.
I chose to concentrate on the next 98 days because I dread my birthday this year more than most. On my birthday I will be the same age my dad was when he died. I look at this birthday and think about what I leave behind if I were to die today. That probably sounds morbid but this year not only marks the age my father was when he lost his life, but also the 20 year anniversary of his death. These two events got me thinking about where I have been going wrong on my journey and what I can do to change things. The answer I came up with revolved around my birthday.
I believe that my problem revolves around the fact that I have become so obsessed with the number on the scale that I get discouraged when my working out and watching my diet doesn’t seem to make any difference. With this in mind I made the decision that for the next 100 days I will not focus on the scale but rather focus on other aspects of my life. I decided that between now and my birthday I will only get on the scale on the first of each month and then on my birthday. In addition, I will continue to do my workouts every day and continue with my eating plan. I need to focus on how I feel and not pin things on the number on the scale.
My hope is that if I focus on how I feel I will stop stressing and maybe get past this dreaded plateau. My 100 day plan is not only about the physical changes, but also about emotional changes. Lately my life has been all about making other people happy and honestly I don’t know what makes me happy anymore. With that in mind my goal for the next 100 days is to find something that I like to do and do it. I need to determine what it is in this life that I want to do and be and not focus on what others think I should or shouldn’t do. My goal is to spend the next 100 days to find myself. Will everything change in just 100 days? No, but forcing myself to look inward will help me find some confidence and help me discover not only who I am but who I want to be.
I look forward to the changes I will hopefully see over the next 100 days.