100 Days to Change

Wednesday, January 19, 2011

There is 100 days until my birthday. Okay it’s actually 98 now but I decided to begin this new path two days ago. I have the next 98 days to work on figuring out who I am and what I want. I have been on a plateau for too long now and every time I start to break through something happens. Basically I have been virtually standing still and getting more frustrated by the day and I need to break through and make something change.

I chose to concentrate on the next 98 days because I dread my birthday this year more than most. On my birthday I will be the same age my dad was when he died. I look at this birthday and think about what I leave behind if I were to die today. That probably sounds morbid but this year not only marks the age my father was when he lost his life, but also the 20 year anniversary of his death. These two events got me thinking about where I have been going wrong on my journey and what I can do to change things. The answer I came up with revolved around my birthday.

I believe that my problem revolves around the fact that I have become so obsessed with the number on the scale that I get discouraged when my working out and watching my diet doesn’t seem to make any difference. With this in mind I made the decision that for the next 100 days I will not focus on the scale but rather focus on other aspects of my life. I decided that between now and my birthday I will only get on the scale on the first of each month and then on my birthday. In addition, I will continue to do my workouts every day and continue with my eating plan. I need to focus on how I feel and not pin things on the number on the scale.

My hope is that if I focus on how I feel I will stop stressing and maybe get past this dreaded plateau. My 100 day plan is not only about the physical changes, but also about emotional changes. Lately my life has been all about making other people happy and honestly I don’t know what makes me happy anymore. With that in mind my goal for the next 100 days is to find something that I like to do and do it. I need to determine what it is in this life that I want to do and be and not focus on what others think I should or shouldn’t do. My goal is to spend the next 100 days to find myself. Will everything change in just 100 days? No, but forcing myself to look inward will help me find some confidence and help me discover not only who I am but who I want to be.

I look forward to the changes I will hopefully see over the next 100 days.

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  • BIKE82X
    Good for you for taking the risk to look at your feelings and your life and create what you want. I too can get discouraged by the scale, which doesn't really mean much. I'm also trying to stick to a plan for the next bit of time, which seems more doable than forever. :) Good luck!!!

    3727 days ago
    I am so super proud of you. You are so totally aware of what you want -that is half the battle. You have opened the door for all of kinds of possibilities to enter with this declaration.

    That is very cool.

    This birthday is bound to be exciting with that it in mind.

    Keep the door open, gorgeous.

    3727 days ago
    It's great that you're focusing on something really positive leading up to a day that's going to be so emotionally difficult. It'll always be the anniversary of the death of your father, but it could also become the anniversary of completing your 100 day program to become the healthiest you've ever been!
    3734 days ago
    You can do it - and be sure to track the small wins along the way, be vigilant to look for the good things that are happening

    3736 days ago
    Remember the number on the scale is only a number--what is more important is how you feel and how your clothes fit. Hid the scale--forget the scale
    You have a very good goal to work for. I have confidence in you that you will succeed.

    3736 days ago
    Maybe you should hide the scale for the 100 days. That would ensure that you're focused on the right things.
    3737 days ago
    Great Blog! Love the strength I felt ruminating out from it!

    Sorry to hear of the loss of your Dad and the feelings that you have along with it! I can't imagine what that would be like.

    I look forward to reading your updates!
    3737 days ago
  • SROUS1340
    This sounds like an excellent plan. My dad's dad died when he was 47. My dad always figured that he would die at that age too. He lived to be 81, but was truly surprised when he got to 48. I understand the psychological impact of losing your dad when he was young, but that was him and you are you. I believe that you are looking at this correctly and will be able to make the changes that you desire to be the person you want to be.
    Best wishes. Susan
    3737 days ago
    best of luck with your goals - hope to see and hear about your successes along the way

    3737 days ago
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