Getting started
Thursday, January 27, 2011
Oh, gosh this is like the one millionth time I tried to diet... I have done so well in the past getting started and loosing about 30 lbs... What happens every single time I have a bad weigh in and then I get discouraged and yeah.... go el nuts-o and just eat whatever I want and gain everything back! ugh! I'm soooo sick of the dam YO YO! I want to get to a healthy weight but Im so afraid this will be another round on the yo yo! If I start doing well and get thrown off the wagon one day how do you get back?.... At this point starting this whole diet crap is not exciting to me! Im not happy. I dont want to excersize, I would love to eat what I crave and just do whatever... Im at my heaviest now ever!!! EVER! my liver sucks my joints sucks and I just feel sucky! but yet... I kinda don't give a crap! I know I gotta get motivated and I need to do this so I wont feel like shit anymore and my knees will be happy again... shouldnt that be enough.. Not for me ... becuase I know this is going to take a year and a complete lifestyle change and Im going to have to give up alot of stuff I enjoy... How do I even get started!!!! mentally....? Thats the question of the day