So I got maybe 5 broken up hours of sleep last night. It was snow stormy out and my husband had to make an unexpected work trip out late into the night not getting home until the wee hours of the morning. Knowing that he had been up for nearly 24 solid hours and was driving in less than perfect driving conditions with the risk of snow slush and black ice did not leave me with peaceful zzzzzz's until I knew he was safe and sound.
Historically speaking I know that when I am extremely tired I crave food. Someone once told me they believed it was the body's way of trying to find extra energy to stay awake and make it through the day. I have no scientific evidence if that's accurate or not, however I do know that when I'm tired I have the desire to munch, and munch, and munch.
Today, at approximately 3PM, that desire overtook me.
My journey isn't about losing weight. It's about being healthy. Completely. Also meaning that I don't beat on myself and guilt myself into a pit of despair. Sure, I could have just not tracked my nutrition today and pretended today never happened. However, isn't that just a passive aggressive way with dealing with guilt? I think so.
I sat down, and without looking at the calorie total, I added in everything I have consumed today. When I was done adding away, I took a look at the tally.
No wonder prior to joining Sparkpeople my weight loss was non existent. Had I not just entered in everything today, I can honestly tell you I would have NEVER imagined I consumed that many calories in one day. NEVER. Today was what one of my "typical" days would have been just three weeks ago. Every Single Day.
So today was my off day. However, it actually keeps me more informed. I understand the importance of sleep not only on my health in being able to be alert for my family, my career, my safety driving on the roads, however also for my health, the choices I'll make to exercise or not, and the nutrition I will give or deny my body.
I am looking forward to sleep tonight. Every Thursday is my weigh day. While I know that tomorrow morning may reflect today's "wowza", I will NOT feel guilty about it or beat myself up about it. I will learn, continue to grow as a whole person, and continue on this journey of self discovery.
Sweet dreams to all,