Sunday, February 13, 2011
My husband has always weighed less than me. Even when I was skinny, before kids....he's always weighed less than me. Of course, back then it was only a 5lb weight difference. Now it's a 30lb difference.
But still. I guess I have it in my head that women should weigh less than men. Of course, I've got 3 inches on him....logically I know that there is a physiological reason for it. But still....I have this secret desire to weigh less than him.
Last night we went to dinner w/our friends. Kind of a last hurrah before Dad moves in with us. Someone said to DH: Hey! you've lost weight! And DH thanked him....yup! he's lost 15lbs. No one said anything about my weight loss. As of last week, it was 9.5lbs. I know, I know....slow is the weigh to go. And while I'm seeing subtle differences in the way my clothes fit, I'm also waiting for others to notice.
Don't get me wrong. I REALLY want DH to lose weight. Through the years he has packed it on (like me)....but he's never had a good sense of portion control.....or what is a healthy snack. He's never tried to deny eating yummy foods so he can get fit. To him it was always a negative thing to sacrifice simple eating pleasures for the sake of health.
We both started our weight loss journey at about the same time.....after the first of the year. I had it in the back of my mind that he would cave....and I would continue and eventually be slimmer than him. It's always worked like that....he's never committed to it.
Somehow tho, this time is different. He is committed. He's finding that he can be satisfied with smaller portions. He is making better choices. And he's exercising several times a week. In other words....it's working for him! And he's finally seeing results after his hard work....which is reinforcing the good behavior!
Don't get me wrong....I'm THRILLED he's committed to it....and seeing results. But there is this secret desire in me that hopes he'll eventually cave....and I'll continue on....and eventually be smaller than him. Is that wrong? I dunno....but it helps to talk about it here.