We have some victories this week.
Sunday, February 20, 2011
I've noticed that it's hard to really share your victories with people who don't understand the power of the urge to binge.
I had a phenomenal victory this week (this awesome chinese buffet) but people that actually have control over their eating just don't get how much of a struggle it is.
Anyway, my cubemate at work really wanted me to go with him to a new buffet. It had a big sushi section (for him) and I found out they had a hibachi grill as well (for me). I resisted the aisles of other food, focused on the hibachi only (and oh my gosh was it delicious), ate my plateful and I was ok.
The big thing isn't "I ate acceptably" but "I wasn't completely and utterly miserable with deprivation". In the past, eating right wasn't a big deal but it was miserable. I've discovered that divorcing myself from things that aren't healthy (fried foods, fast foods, pizza, cream sauces/soups, etc etc etc) is the only thing that really works. I don't get the taste so I don't have the temptation. So being around a buffet and not being unhappy was the biggest sign of progress I've had in reprogramming my thought process.
And.. I've dropped under 250 lbs. I'm within around 5 - 7 lbs of being the smallest I've been in ten years or more. I've lost a total of 41 lbs and I've done it without counting calories (which makes me MISERABLE).
When I lose 50 lbs, I'm going to do something special. Just gotta figure out what.