Monday, February 21, 2011
I have just run out of steam. I haven't exercised in about 2-3 weeks, and don't feel like doing any. I am bored with my current options - thinking of trying the gym soon with a 10-visit pass or something, to do something different to get me motivated again. I've always loved using the cross trainer while listening to music and watching the gym TVs, and unlike some of the other stuff I've tried like EA Sports Active and Zumba I can take it at my own pace and build up to it.
I'm also fed up with the diet. I have stuck to tracking, but I've had a few days of going over my goals. I just am struggling to find meals I want now (out of inspiration), although I feel like eating fatty carby stuff like fried things and meals out. I'm craving the more intense tastes too I think - try as we might, we just don't really get the intense tastes in things we cook at home (lack of skill, I guess). I've also really fancied cake. I will probably try making one when I get a chance, will try a lower fat recipe but know that I'll probably not get it in my calorie goals.
My husband suggested taking a week off the diet and just eating what I want, but I'm afraid of doing too much damage to my efforts and not wanting to go back to the diet. This was the diet to end all diets, the one I was going to stick with until I lost weight, not another do-well-for-3-to-6-weeks-and-t
hen-get-bored-and-give-up. I was thinking of finding out what my daily calorie needs would actually be and look at setting that as a max level but allowing myself to go over my goals a little or on occasion.
Just not really sure what the best path from here is. It's the same old story and it leads to me resenting the diet for not letting me eat what I want, and then I'd resent myself for being obese and not ever being able to stick to anything to shift the weight.
I just hope if I try a new exercising method to revive my interest, and maybe get a few more tasty treats into my life, I can at least stick to this path until I get over this slump and get back into it.