Thursday, April 28, 2011
Blog #24 - Or Frustration!
So its been a while since I blogged. I didn't make my bday goal and I'm actually fine with that. I've seen my counselor 2 times and go again on Friday. I actually feel in a way better place. I have upped my calories eaten. I base it on a 1000 calorie daily deficit. I don't want any more than that.
The frustration now is that when friends ask me if I've reached my goal, I tell them my first goal is 6lbs away. But after that to reach a healthy BMI I will need to lose 30-40lbs. My friends then get very upset.
"That is too much."
"You will be skin and bones."
"That isn't healthy"
Well thank you for your concern but do I really need to tell them I am still 205.5lbs? No. My husband knows how much I weigh. Do I have a goal weight of 125lbs? No. I am aiming at 175ish and just maintain.
After this 6lbs, I will change it up to more running/training and less concentration on diet. Yes, I will still track my calories but I won't worry so much on a set deficit. I will be eating way more while I'm training way harder. I think I have it under control.
So I guess in the end I guess I'm flattered that at 205.5lbs people think I weigh way less.