The Funk Has Been Lifted!

Friday, April 29, 2011

I am not much of a blogger...I interact with Jodi's Walking Crew peeps on a daily basis so I pretty much get my vent on every day. Whether it's a good day or a bad The Crew is always there to support me and other members. Most of you know that I was in a 'funk' for several weeks....but you all don't know that I was severely depressed.

It started in early March and progressed faster then a wild fire across dry grassy land! So fast I don't even know what hit me. I have no idea what trigger it, I would like to think it was a from of SAD seasonal affective disorder but I am not positive. I was still walking/running every day but my eating habits went down the drain. I just didn't care nor did I have the energy to care. When I was home alone all day I did nothing but cry. Some days I went back to bed a cried there. I developed a lump in my throat due to the stress of whatever was stressing me so bad. I was anxious over nothing and I was beginning to drive myself crazy. I tried my best to stay positive but it was really hard. I stopped tracking my food and the scale went up 2 lbs and stayed there for 6 longs weeks....I had so many people telling me how good I looked and what a great job I have done, I thanked them with smiles on my face while on the inside I couldn't even enjoy the complement because I didn't feel as joyous as I should. I kept sitting down and evaluating what I was doing, why was I feeling so bad....and kept coming up with no answer.
I did reach out here and there, and was thankful for the advice, but the only person who could change the way I felt was me. I made a gut wrenching decision to start taking Prozac again to help me get out of this depressed state I was in. I toggled with this decision because I was so very proud of myself for 'walking off my depression meds' last year I almost felt like a failure going back on them. Well my pride is not that strong and I am not to afraid to say 'I need help'. So that's what I did and I am already starting to feel better!
I wanted to share this with all of you because this may benefit someone else and you all know I am all about sharing and helping others through the same journey I am going through.
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    Hi Jodi I had no idea that you were struggling so much. Sometimes we all need extra help. There no shame in that. I definitely want to try out your toning calendar for May its always good to change up your workout a bit and I need to tone as much as posible as I aim to lose this last bit of weight.
    take care of yourself. emoticon
    3494 days ago

    Comment edited on: 4/30/2011 5:25:40 PM
    Thank you so much ladies! I love my SP & FB family!
    3495 days ago
    I'm so glad your starting to feel better Jodi. I could tell on facebook that there was something wrong but didn't know if I should ask, didn't want to invade your personal space with questions. Just so happy your doing better. There is nothing to be ashamed of if you stay on meds. that help the brain. It's just like blood pressure pills that people need to take everyday to stay alive, even if they are getting enough exercise. Sometimes exercise isn't always the answer to everything.
    Love your workout cal. for May!!!!
    Thank you again for all that you do on facebook for everyone. I love being a part of your crew. I don't post as often as I should but that's because my life is always sooo busy.
    Keep feeling better and stay on the meds. if you really need them. They are there to help you!
    Hugs my friend. emoticon emoticon
    3495 days ago
  • MISSLISA1973
    I'm so glad you shared this. I can see why you would feel like a failure for going back on your meds. Our society really pushes the pull-yourself-up-by-your-bootstraps mentality. Yet the strongest of us admits we need help. I am so glad you found your help!!! emoticon I am glad you are doing better. I could tell by your FB posts you were struggling, but I had no idea how badly.

    I'm SO GLAD you are doing better. Please let us know if you struggle again. It's OK to be depressed. Let us help you as much as we can. You help all of us and we would love to return the favor.
    3495 days ago
    I'm glad you decided to get back on the Prozac. I know from experience what it's like to be depressed and there is nothing you can do about it. If medication helps you like it did me when I needed it then it's the best thing you could have done to get the help you needed for yourself. There is no shame in needing medication to help you through a tough time. Great to have you feeling better.

    3495 days ago
    Thanks for the posting ! You are such an inspiration and I am one of your followers on facebook. This sounds like me and I was in a depressive state awhile back, still am some but it comes and go now and is not constant like it was though. If I ever slip back though I will remember to not be so hard on myself.....sometimes we all need help. Hope you have a great weekend !
    3495 days ago
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