Fat day x 1 Mil. Still haven't caved, but going insane.
Thursday, May 05, 2011
Wow, it's been a long time since I've blogged! Jeebus!
I think the last time I blogged, I was struggling with my routine. I lost 25lbs during the summer and around fall is when I started slacking a bit. I gained about 14lbs back from not doing well and through the holidays. It was a bit rough getting back into things. I was unemployed during the holidays as well, which made it even harder to motivate myself and to feel good about myself.
Fast forward to today, I have been working on my diet, trying to improve my portion control and living cleaner. I have also been back in the gym an average of about 4 days a week I'd say. I've lost those 14lbs again, as well as another 5lbs. So I'm down a total of 19lbs since February. I've been feeling better about myself, without losing sight of my true goal. I am that person that loses a good chunk of weight then feels like I've worked hard and deserve a treat, which ultimately turns into a horrible diet again. I haven't done that yet, thank goodness! I'm reallllllllly trying.
I have another thing that's keeping me on my toes is my cousin asked me to be one of her bridesmaids in her wedding. I haven't ever been in a wedding, so I'm really nervous about not being that "stand out" girl in the dress in the front of the ceremony. Also, I was in between sizes at the first fitting, which I'm obv NOT gonna gain weight to fit into the dress. So, I have to lose about an inch in my bust and a half an inch in my thigh area. (Hopefully, I've done that already with the 19lbs) Being overweight, I don't really dress up because I just do't feel great about myself, but I'm hoping to knock the socks off myself and my husband. He hasn't seen me in a dress for about 3 years I'd say. I think it's time :)
So back to the reason for this blog.. I come up o my pms week right before tom and BAM so tired, so low energy, just not good. I'm about ready to exploded and I wish I would already so I can get passed it. I feel like a cow right now (I know I know, but I do). I'm hoping it comes, and soon so I can get my mojo back. Dang mother nature.
Anyway, sorry I've been away for awhile. I've missed talking to a bunch of you. I hope you all are doing great =)