Sunday, May 22, 2011
I have finally, recently gotten on track with both my eating and exercising. It's taking so long, and now I have a huge emotional upset in my life. I haven't been able to eat hardly at all today. I know this is not okay (even though I love it because it will make me lose some weight quickly) because it will throw off my entire system and eventually put me back into the lose 5, gain 10 trap. I'm doing a lot of praying, trying to stay calm, and let my feelings come, but my stomach is just shut down. I know that I have to go through the pain to get to the other side, but I just don't want it to wreck my body. I realize that I am really sad that just as things have started to roll along physically for me, the rest of my life is not cooperating.